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    • Autumn Equinox 2010
      • A Goddess’ Work Is Never Done
      • A House of Cards
      • A Nahuatl Legend
      • A Prayer to the Mousai at Taughannock Falls
      • A Tale of King Midas
      • Deepak Chopra Presents: India Authentic
      • Delphi
      • Earth God Rising
      • Erin Lale
      • Hekate: Her Sacred Fires
      • Imaro
      • Nicanthiel Hrafnhild
      • North Queen
      • P Sufenas Virius Lupus
      • Root, Stone and Bone: Honoring Andvari and the Vaettir of Money
      • Sannion
      • Secret Signs, Symbols and Sigils/Dragons of the West
      • Shinto Norito: A Book of Prayers
      • Smoking Mirror?
      • Stitches In Fate
      • The Tet
      • Thor in the South
      • Visions of Vanaheim
    • Autumn Equinox 2011
      • A Passion for Athena
      • Anthesteria
      • Dancing With Shiva
      • Etain and Mider
      • I Call Him ….
      • I Kill Giants
      • Jai Shri Panchamukha!
      • Josh Rood
      • Kallistei — To The Fairest
      • Little Dragons
      • Magna Mater
      • Melusine Volume One: Hocus Pocus
      • Misunderstood Myths
      • Papa’s Touch
      • Percy Jackson and the Olympians
      • Poem XV: Diana
      • Pohadky
      • Seeking
      • Supergods
      • The Good Neighbors Book One: Kin
      • The Passion of the Grain God
      • To Hekate, Goddess of the Underworld
      • Wolfen Moondaughter
    • Autumn Equinox 2012
      • An Ode to Dionysus
      • Artemis with Bone
      • Bigfoot Dreams of Home
      • Damon Zacharias Lycourinos
      • Daughters of Demeter
      • Daybreak
      • Deerskin
      • Eostre Discusses Theology with Jesus
      • Eros Unloosed
      • Faun
      • Fomorian Legacy
      • Fragments of Bone
      • Freyja in Falcon-Skin
      • Hebrew Bible Goddesses and Modern Feminist Scholarship
      • Hemera the Day
      • Hemera’s Honey
      • How the Sun and the Moon Came to Be: A Creation Story for Heathen Children
      • Jennifer Lyn Parsons
      • Loki and the Dancers
      • Loki and the Hunger Time
      • Pagan Spirituality
      • Persephone
      • Rice Grower: A Song for Inari
      • Serving Fire
      • The Burning
      • The Clay Goddess
      • The Expected One
      • The Long Death of Odysseus
      • The Sacred Prostitute
      • The Shaman’s Journey
      • The Storm Over Medusa’s House
      • Vesta
      • Watchers at the Well
    • Autumn Equinox 2013
      • A Coloring Book of Greek Goddesses
      • Anna and the False God
      • Apocalyptic Witchcraft
      • Balder Dies
      • Beloved of All, But One
      • Bindings One: Not Forgotten
      • Cari Ferraro
      • Eragon
      • Erzabet Bishop
        • Excerpts: Beltane Fires
      • From the Prow of Myth
      • Greek Gods and Goddesses
      • Hekate: Goddess of Samhain
      • House Magic
      • Loki’s Only Wife: A Meditation on Grief
      • Mused
      • Night-Blooming
      • Pagan Goddesses in the Early Germanic World
      • Passing into Shadow
      • Raikou and the Shi-Ten Doji
      • Sanctuary Farm
      • Selene
      • The Contest
      • The Fairy Queen of Spencer’s Butte and Other Tales
      • The Farthest Shore
      • The Girl in the Moonlight
      • The Olde Religion
      • The Orphic Hymns
      • The Ruin of Beltany Ring
      • The Tarot Card Deck
      • Tyche
      • Who Wore the Girdle
      • Wizards and Witches
    • Autumn Equinox 2014
      • A Box of Hope
      • A Fable of Enduring Love
      • Aphrodite’s Tortoise
      • Bastet, Kali, and Kwan Yin on TV
      • Bindings V: What Remains
      • Black Cat Spare
      • Brisingamen: A Meditation on the Goddess Freyja
      • Bruxa
      • Circle Waltz
      • Eurydice Sings
      • Fifty Shades of Green
      • Frog Woman Gives Birth Under an Ancient Tree
      • Genesis
      • Gertrude Bird: A Retold Folktale
      • Hekate in Waiting
      • Humans, Please Stop Misusing the Rainbow Bridge
      • I Am a Witch’s Cat
      • Invocation of the Grandmother
      • Jennifer Lawrence
      • Julia’s House for Lost Creatures
      • Lady of Holiness
      • Loki: Bound Between Ice and Fire
      • Minotaur
      • My Own Hermopolis
      • Notes of a Master
      • Of Dragons and Magic
      • Power Before Wisdom Primer
      • Sigil Fire
      • Síol na Draoithe
      • That Dream of Stars
      • The Battle of Shuhyung and the Yellow Emperor
      • The Cave of the Goddess
      • The Resurrectionist
      • The Sleeping One-Eyed God
      • The Trade
      • The White Dress, The Autumn Leaves
      • Tolerating Trollery Grows Rape Culture
      • When Hades Felt
    • Autumn Equinox 2015
      • American Heathens
      • Anchorite
      • As Promised, From the Deck (Your Fortune)
      • At Stake
      • Breaking the Mother Goose Code
      • Breaking the Mother Goose Code
      • Chastity Heather King
      • Chryseis
      • Daughter
      • Egypt Among Beets
      • Fire of the Lightning God
      • Honoring Sigyn
      • Hot Spot
      • How to Become Queen of the Underworld
      • Join the Coven of Her
      • Journey to the Dark Goddess
      • Mamikoola
      • Moon-Mad
      • On the Road
      • One Wilde Night
      • Pagan Portals: The Morrigan
      • Portable Shrines: A Brief Tutorial
      • Smintheus
      • The Shamanic Handbook of Sacred Tools and Ceremonies
      • The Story of Sif
      • Virgos in Valhalla
      • Vocal Magick
      • Weregild, or, There Is No Absolution in Heathenry
      • What Killed Aleister Crowley?
    • Spring Equinox 2010
      • A Hymn to Hermes Dionysodotos
      • A Path Without Bones
      • All About Gerd
      • Artemis Iokheira
      • Beltane
      • Corrina Lawson
      • Encyclopedia Mythologica: Gods and Heroes
      • Flowers
      • Goddess of Pohjola
      • Horus
      • Kyrielle to Persephone
      • Magic, Power, Language, Symbol
      • Queen
      • Sacred
      • witches&pagans #20
    • Spring Equinox 2011
      • A Tear for Egypt: February 3, 2011
      • Actaeon’s Hunt
      • Clotho’s Favor
      • Ereshkigal
      • Galina Krasskova
      • Glory of Light
      • Heabani the Eunuch: A Tale of Revenge in Old Sumer
      • Inanna Gabriel
      • Instructions for the Netherworld
      • Kythira
      • Make Garlands and Necklaces of My Flowers
      • Michael Psellus
      • Mistress of the Keys: Part One
      • Negotiating the Boundaries Between Good and Evil
      • Pandora Gets Jealous
      • Poem of Respect to Hela In Memorium
      • Raven’s Gift
      • Six Views of New York City in the Spring (or, This is Lady Liberty of American Dreams)
      • The Lightning Thief
    • Spring Equinox 2012
      • All-Soul, All-Body, All-Love, All-Power: A Transmythology
      • Break Out
      • Crafting Magick With Pen and Ink
      • Diana Remembers Actaeon
      • Drift of the Nymphs
      • Epona Matins
      • Ever Flowing
      • Grave Mercy
      • Imagine
      • Inanna, Queen of the Universe
      • Isis Conquers All
      • Larisa Hunter
      • Luuna
      • Queen of Heaven and Earth
      • SageWoman #81
      • Sara Timoteo
      • Sigyn Dreams
      • The Faery Garden
      • The Fourth Card Is The Empress
      • The Scent of Lilies
      • This Desert In His Soul
      • When the Lion Roars: A Devotional to the Egyptian Goddess Sekhmet
      • witches&pagans #24
    • Spring Equinox 2013
      • A Norse Bestiary
      • A Ticketless Spectacle
      • Advent
      • Atibon Legba
      • Datura: An Anthology of Esoteric Poesis
      • Echo, Silenced
      • Elissa Wilds
      • Elves in Anglo-Saxon England
      • Ex-Patriate God, Half-Wishing
      • Hades
      • Homeric Greek: A Book For Beginners
      • If We Could See the Gods
      • Liquid Pleasure
      • Marrying Spirit: A Song for Bawon Samedi
      • Mirror, Mirror
      • Miss November
      • My Old Peace
      • Narcissus, Loathing
      • On Grace: A Brief Meditation on the Charites
      • Papa Damballah
      • Passcode of the Gods
      • Persephone
      • Sleeping Beauty
      • The Closing of the Western Mind
      • The Dead Stand Before Green Osiris
      • The Fires of Beltaine
      • The Morrigan
      • The Ordeal
      • The Way of the Oracle
      • The Wind Is Blowing
      • Utterly Pure
      • Vergil’s Aeneid
    • Spring Equinox 2014
      • A Magical Life
      • A Winter Knight’s Vigil
      • Anguish of the Minotaur
      • Bellerophon Upon Pegasus: Riding West
      • Bindings III: Gentlest
      • Brigid Invocation
      • Celebrating Mother’s Day
      • Cerridwen Invocation
      • Churn
      • Crow
      • Death and the Maiden
      • Dreamwork for the Initiate’s Path
      • Fenrir’s Pain
      • Fieldstones
      • Fire Goes Where It Will
      • Fixity (Or Hathor’s Hairpin)
      • For Every Purpose
      • Immortal Muse
      • Kindle the Fire
      • Northern Pastoral
      • Pathway to Hare
      • Reaching Rose
      • Relationship-Based Heathenry: Ethics and Practices: Part Two
      • Rooted in the Body, Seeking the Soul
      • The Bifrost Bridge
      • The Eye of the Hare
      • The Quadrenes and the Quintarians: What a Fantasy Novel Can Teach the Heathen Community
      • The Queen
      • The Ride of the Dullahan
      • The Undead Pool
      • To Diana From a Tiny Forest Creature
      • Two Black Birds
      • Valediction of the White Goddess
      • Waking Earth
      • Wendy Rule
      • What Nephthys Has Collected
    • Spring Equinox 2015
      • A Charm of Magpies
      • Across the Azure Sea
      • Apollo of Perdition
      • Arachne Pending
      • Atlas Unhinged
      • Behaving As If the God in All Life Mattered
      • Ceallaigh S MacCath
      • Death and the Healer
      • Diana Rajchel
      • Honor the Creators
      • Invocations and Other Love Songs
      • Looking Forward To It
      • Love Bites
      • On Divination
      • On the Road to Thebes
      • Pagan Portals: The Morrigan
      • Poem for a God of Lies
      • Religion Laid Bear
      • Shadows of Serenity
      • Singing With Blackbirds
      • Sisters Under the Skin
      • Spring Ritual
      • Thanatos [here invoked as our raging love of destruction]
      • The First Night of the World
      • The Garden Rules
      • The Rocks, They Glow in the Moonlight
      • The Sand Gods
      • The Spaewife
      • The Woman Who Spoke in Riddles
      • The Wounded King
      • Thoughts On … Bringing Race to the Table
      • To Eurydice in Dallas
      • Wayland’s Song
      • Wolf Fabric
      • Words That Heathens Should Not Use as Insults
    • Spring Equinox 2016
      • Beltane Fires
      • Blood And Other Fruit
      • Captured: A Fallen Siren Prequel Novella
      • Chelsea Luellon Bolton
      • Chris Aldridge
      • Cupid’s Mark
      • Equinox (After Blodeuwedd)
      • Fey & Witch
      • For Freyja
      • Freedom of Speech Along the Walls of Troy
      • Hapi Breasts the First Cataract
      • House of Stone
      • Human Actions Are the Human’s Responsibility
      • Ill-Conceived Magic: A Monster Haven Short Story
      • Mother’s Child
      • Mythopoeia
      • Narasimha, Fourth Incarnation of Vishnu
      • Narcissus On His Knees
      • Norse Goddess Magic
      • Once and Future
      • Psychonaut
      • Roskva’s Song
      • Scorpions In Her Hands
      • Skadi In Snow
      • Souvenirs From Above
      • SPECTR: The Complete First Series
      • The Chalice
      • Thoth Plays Senet With the Moon
      • Through Blood, the Knowledge
      • Through The Door
      • To Serve a God of the Dead
      • Uche Ogbuji
      • Witch Lord of the Hunt
      • Worshiping Loki
      • Yomi-no-kuni
      • Zephyr, Lord of Air (a poetic fragment)
    • Summer Solstice 2010
      • Aphrodite Melainis
      • Before the Gate
      • Day Star and Whirling Wheel
      • Flesh and Fire
      • Freya’s Gift
      • Goddess
      • In The Beginning
      • Iron-Maker
      • Mother of Plagues
      • Ogham Grove
      • Runes: Theory and Practice
      • Scott Mohnkern
      • Shapeshifter
      • Svartesól
      • The Huntress Within
      • The Interstitial Fairy Demolition Crew Casts a Circle
      • To Hygeia
      • Wiccan Book of Angels
      • Wiła
    • Summer Solstice 2011
      • A Child’s Eye View of Heathenry
      • Alan Leddon
      • Bacchanalia
      • Dionysus
      • Inanna’s Lunar Stygian
      • Khepera
      • Kindertales
      • Learning to Honor Scathach: Reviving a Warrior’s Cultus
      • Lord of Light and Shadow
      • Mistress of the Keys: Part Two
      • Of Hermes
      • Origin: Spirits of the Past
      • Remembering: Brigid’s Voice of Fire
      • Shadow Bound
      • Sisters of Fate
      • Songs of Praise
      • The Eagle
      • The Mermaid and the Sun
      • The Sphinx
      • The Tribe of Danu
      • What Makes a God
    • Summer Solstice 2012
      • A Song for Odin
      • A Witch’s Ten Commandments
      • Anubis Whispers
      • Climbing the Soul Vine
      • Dagian Madir
      • Dragon Bound
      • Dwelling on the Threshold
      • Eiraphiotes (InSewn)
      • Frigga and the Gingerbread Village: A Yule Tale for Children
      • Golden Hair
      • graeae
      • Hades, the Gatherer
      • Kore
      • Maris and Talas Pái
      • Nihtbealu
      • Plays Well With Others: A Brief Meditation on Hestia
      • Ravening
      • Red Sonja: She-Devil With a Sword Volume One
      • The Courageous Princess
      • The Fairy Artist’s Figure Drawing Bible
      • The Pursuit of the Horned God
      • The Shaman and the Oracle
      • The Touch of a God
      • To My Lady of Whom I’ve Never Heard —
      • Valknotting
      • Wheel of the Year
      • William McGillis
    • Summer Solstice 2013
      • (Untitled)
      • Butterflies: A Meditation on Sigyn
      • Classic Celtic Fairy Tales
      • Cross-Pollination
      • Crossing
      • Do We Need Mayday?
      • Dwelling on the Threshold: Reflections of a Spirit-Worker and Devotional Polytheist
      • Finding Medusa
      • Fireflies at Absolute Zero
      • Heathen Paths: Viking and Anglo-Saxon Pagan Beliefs
      • Hekate’s Daughters
      • In Search of the Lost Feminine
      • Introduction to Old English
      • Jhenah Telyndru
      • Last Night I Dreamt of the Jaguar
      • Myself to Myself
      • Necklace
      • Once a Witch
      • Orpheus in Austin
      • Poseidon Night
      • Sacred Source
      • Strange Spirits Volume One
      • Tehanu
      • Tess Dawson
      • The Bone Boy
      • The Cavern’s Wise Woman: The Bear Goddess
      • The Dragon, The Monkey, and The Moon
      • The God in the Corner
      • The Grey Wizards: Odin and Gandalf
      • The Homeric Hymn to Demeter
      • The Once and Future King
      • The Ravens
      • The Serpent From the Dawn of Time: A Tale of Prehistoric Egypt
      • The Sweetest Thing
      • Zeus Behooved
    • Summer Solstice 2014
      • A Cop’s Guide to Occult Investigations
      • Asgard as a Multi-Racial Society
      • Bindings IV: Far Away
      • Brigid’s Fire
      • Cyparissus
      • Dinner with Dionysus
      • Embracing Heathenry
      • Erzabet Bishop
      • Fir Goddess/Fire Goddess
      • Getting to Phuket: Body Image, Nudity, and Being Comfortable in My Skin
      • Haiku-Like Poems Inspired by Greek Mythology
      • Her Many Faces
      • Hieros Gamos
      • Holy Ghost Petroglyph, Utah
      • Honey and Acacia
      • Hostile Country
      • In the Tomb of Diana
      • Inkubus Sukkubus
      • Itzel’s Repast
      • Lilith (I)
      • Lilith (II)
      • Lugh
      • Michael Routery
      • Mythology and Comic Books
      • Narcissus
      • No Green Beer
      • Persephone Seeks Soft Fur of Bees
      • Ram-Headed Serpent
      • Rhavensfyre
      • Right Here Right Now
      • Snow White
      • Song for Otter
      • The Chaining of Loki
      • The Devil Is a Gentleman
      • The Keepsake
      • The Plague Queen
      • The Pomegranate
      • The Right Bitch Trio
      • The Thickety
      • Untitled (Fragment 105B)
      • Venus Felix and Roma
      • Wayob
      • Wednesday
    • Summer Solstice 2015
      • A Practical Heathen’s Guide to Asatru
      • Agamemnon
      • Blessings on My Kin
      • Call to Me
      • Calling Thee to the Deep Woods (Pan to Selene, After Virgil)
      • Cut In Marble
      • Dedication to Aphrodite and Desire
      • Delphyne
      • Elen of the Ways
      • Hymn to the Rustic Theoi, Praise and Supplication From Southern Appalachia
      • Labyrinth (Theseus and Minos, or, Daddy Issues)
      • Lives
      • Medusa of the Midway Diner
      • Moon in the South
      • Morrigan
      • Nile Nights
      • No Horns on These Helmets
      • No Horns on These Helmets (II)
      • Norse Magical and Herbal Healing
      • Pasiphae
      • Persephone Awakens
      • Persephone Dreams: Awakening
      • Poison Pen Letters to Myself
      • Sarah Sadie
      • Seasons
      • Skjaldmey
      • Sparks and Acetyline: Weyland Smith
      • The Druid’s Primer
      • The Hell You Say
      • The Morrigan: Crow Goddess of Death
      • The Secret Casebook of Simon Feximal
      • The Snake and the Kettle
      • The Spiritual Feminist
      • Thor’s Regret
      • Wild Earth, Wild Soul
      • Wild Earth, Wild Soul (II)
    • Summer Solstice 2016
      • Alicia Cole
      • April Fools
      • Avebury
      • Balder Rises
      • Bone Swans
      • Charon’s Exchange
      • Demeter’s Song
      • Domino
      • Enochian Wars
      • For Beltane
      • Galina Krasskova
      • Golden Delicious
      • Heqat
      • Invocation of Diana
      • Jezebel
      • Keening
      • Loki Invents the Net
      • Nina Kossman
      • Odinson
      • Pagan Planet
      • Planet of the Magi
      • Pyrrha
      • Remembering to Eat
      • Sister Owl
      • Sowelu: A Sermon on the Old Gods
      • Tending Brigid’s Flame
      • The Dancing Goddesses
      • The Dreaming Norns
      • The Faerie Knoll
      • The Horses of Buhen
      • The Knot of Odin
      • The Riddle of the Sands
      • We are traveling through dark at tremendous speeds
      • Wishing Well
      • Wonder Woman in Batman vs Superman: Dawn of Justice — How Did They Do?
      • Yard Sale of the Fates
    • Summer Solstice 2017
      • 3000 Daughters of Ocean
      • Bonfire Night
      • Dim Sum Asylum
      • Eight Minutes to Reach the Sun?
      • Eleionomae
      • Feathers, petals, fur, bone
      • For Agni
      • Geomystica
      • Honoring Ys
      • If There Were Other Lives
      • Jai Jai
      • Jhenah Telyndru
      • Kathy Crabbe
      • Languid Solstice
      • Lilith
      • Lorna Smithers
      • Lupercalia
      • Math Jones
      • Medusa In Her Mirror
      • Missed
      • Narcissus
      • Neolithic Shamanism
      • Pagan Portals: By Wolfsbane and Mandrake Root
      • Pomegranates and Ashes
      • PS I Spook You
      • Quetzalcoatl in a Cowboy Hat
      • Spirit Bottle
      • Split
      • teenage ghosts
      • tha may ask thee sen/At the Finish
      • The Breaking of the Waters
      • The Broken Cauldron
      • The Drowsing God
      • The Elements
      • The Madness and the Magic
      • The Madness and the Magic (2)
      • The Popaeg Dirge
      • The Secret Life of Lady Liberty
      • The Sionan
      • Vanth: A Myth Derived
      • Wooing Wohpe
    • Summer Solstice 2018
      • (Almost) Magic
      • Alura Rose
      • Every Day Magic: A Pagan Book of Days
      • Fae of Forests
      • Finding Hecate
      • Gilgamesh at Enkidu’s Deathbed
      • Goddess
      • Hymn to Ceres
      • Ix Chel and the Rabbit
      • Kele Lampe
      • Lament From the Ruin Mounds
      • Lamora’s Initiation
      • Lost and Found
      • Mother
      • Mythology in the Classroom
      • Ode to the Gorgon
      • Of Creation
      • On the Riverbank
      • Pagan Portals: Divination: By Rod, Birds, and Fingers
      • Pagan Portals: Odin
      • Pagan Portals: Rhiannon: Divine Queen of the Celtic Britons
      • She Is
      • So full of light sparkle, this dark mattered formulae
      • Solace in the Groves
      • Sonnet to Freya
      • Summer Outside the Mount Wilson Observatory
      • The Fall of Icarus
      • The First Book of Urglaawe Myths: Old Deitsch Tales for the Current Era
      • The Marathoner
      • The New Prometheus
      • The Return of Odin: The Modern Renaissance of Pagan Imagination
      • Two Long Tails
    • Summer Solstice 2019
      • 16 Psyche — Ode to an Asteroid
      • A Mask of Ice
      • Ad Astra
      • Algol’s Lamp
      • Apotheosis
      • Aurvandil’s Toe
      • Candle, Thread, and Flute
      • City of Crows
      • Dagulf Loptson
      • Daniel Cureton
      • Erin Lale
      • Fair Astraea
      • Fallen Star
      • Flame-Mistress of the Morning Star
      • Galina Krasskova
      • Ganymede
      • Goddess
      • How to Honor Sirius
      • If You Were
      • Inanna-sig, Evening Star Inanna
      • Like a Fixed Star
      • Love of the Gods
      • Plant and Fungus Totems
      • Special Feature: Du’s Voyage
      • Spells, Salt, and Steel: Season One
      • The Helmet of Pluto
      • The Seed of Yggdrasil
      • The Study of Witchcraft
      • The Trickster
    • Summer Solstice 2020
      • At the Crossroads: Beltane and Samhain
      • Black Cat Chant
      • Black in White
      • Christmas 2019
      • Dithyrambos
      • Ginoong Panay
      • Golowan
      • June first
      • Lifting the Veil
      • Mabon’s Melodies
      • Marzanna
      • Old Year’s Night
      • Pumpkins
      • Quarter/Cross-Quarter
      • The Chicken Mine
      • The Fires of Ecstasy at Samhuinn
      • The Last Libation
      • The Mardi Gras Tree
      • The Radix Scripts
      • Tiw, Tiw, Tiw: A Triple Invocation of Tyr for the 2019 Global Climate Strike
      • To the Goddess
      • To the Unknown God
      • Trinity Sight
      • Walpurgis Night
      • What Does Heathenry Mean?
    • Summer Solstice 2022
      • (a fairy)
      • A Maze of Murder
      • A Midsummer’s Procession
      • A Proper Dragon
      • A Tribute to the Ferryman
      • Between Dutchman’s Grove and the Iron Hills
      • Changeling World
      • Circe’s Song
      • Circe, Part One
      • Coyote Eats the City
      • Crow Fold
      • Dame Fortune vs Dame Wisdom
      • Devil Dog
      • Faery Ride
      • Forest Heart
      • In shape no bigger than an agate stone
      • Ma’at’s Precipice
      • Morgan le Fey the Apple Tree
      • On the Limitations of Photographic Evidence in Fairyland
      • Phoenix
      • Pietà
      • Pilgrimage
      • Polytheistic Monasticism: Voices From the Pagan Cloisters
      • Questing Done Right: The Goblin Market
      • Sabrina
      • Styx
      • The Duality of Light and Dark in Otherworlds as Explored in Clay Franklin Johnson’s “My Mélusine Illusion”
      • The Four Profound Weaves
      • The Garden of Evening
      • The Hecatean Ides; or, The Dark Spirit of Shelleyan Solitude
      • The Knock
      • The Lament of Arawn’s Queen
      • The Soul Candle of Olam Ha-Ba
      • Travel Tips for the Underworld
      • Veiled
      • Where My Lover Goes
    • Winter Solstice 2009
      • A Pagan Bible
      • Attar of Dark
      • Divinely Feminine?
      • Herne
      • Hounds
      • I’d Find You Again
      • in silence
      • Mississippi Apollo
      • Mortality
      • Multi-Media Magic
      • Olympus
      • Quantity
      • Season’s Greetings
      • Song to Hermes
      • The Conception of Ares
      • The Washer at the Laundromat
      • Triune Puja
    • Winter Solstice 2010
      • “On Delos was bright Apollo born”
      • A Letter to Loki
      • Amanda Sioux Blake
      • Anya Kless
      • Ashen Sky
      • Coming of the Storm
      • CS MacCath
      • Ekho and Narkissus
      • Frogging
      • Graven Images
      • Hearth and Field
      • Hera’s Glory, Rising
      • Moirae
      • Of Numbers and Stars
      • Omri Navot
      • Sophie Reicher
      • The Healer
      • The Mermaids
      • The Music of Love
      • The Syncretisms of Antinous
      • The Wild Hunt
      • Wee Morning Muse
      • Werewolves: The Occult Truth
      • Where Spirits Live
      • Winter
    • Winter Solstice 2011
      • A Book of Tongues
      • Anne Welch
      • Candlemas: Feast of Flames
      • Cows Out
      • Daphne’s Errand
      • Dionysus in The Bacchae
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Eternal Haunted Summer

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Eternal Haunted Summer

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Spirit Bottle

This flask is more than glass.
A witch will etch the symbols and sigils
brew the tinctures, burn the acrid herbs
Chant the secret names of time.

She suspends the bottle in the light
lures the ghost to its new home.
The essence swirls in, unaware
fills the curves of purpose and design.

As the soul settles, she stoppers the bottle
guards against drafts and errant hands
seals with substances better left unnamed
contains the very nature of a man.

Suspended by silver links of chain
the ghost bottle sways.
Powdery residue and bone chips
reveal nothing of the past.

My talisman is more than glass.
The light reflects little of your soul.
I search for secrets in remembered whispers
the semblance of your smile, your sparkling eyes.

Symbols unravel to senseless lines.
The light reveals no hidden future
nothing snared, no precious words.
The glass pales and light falters.

I clasp this amulet filled with sorrow.
Your spirit has flowed beyond the brim
unhampered by all elements.
I have enclosed nothing but a dream.

This vessel is more than brittle glass.
It is tissue and bone that holds my thoughts.
No more can it contain my memories
than a spirit bottle can hold your soul.

[Colleen Anderson has published over two hundred pieces of poetry and fiction in such publications as Crucible (2nd place winner), Witches & Pagans, They Have to Take You In, Polu Texni, and Cicada. She is an Aurora Award finalist in poetry and a Rannu competition place winner. She has new poetry coming out in OnSpec and Burning Maiden.]

Summer Solstice 2017

Poetry
3000 Daughters of Ocean by Amelia Gorman
The Breaking of the Waters by Deborah Guzzi
The Drowsing God by Deborah Davitt
Eleionomae by Neva Bryan
The Elements by Avalon Graves
Feathers, petals, fur, bone by Kate Garrett
For Agni by Jennifer Lawrence
Geomystica by Colleen Anderson
Honoring Ys by Deborah J Brannon
If There Were Other Lives by Beate Sigriddaughter
Jai Jai by Kerri-Leigh Grady
Lilith by KA Opperman
Medusa in Her Mirror by Hillary Lyon
Missed by Deborah Guzzi
Narcissus by Steven Klepetar
Pomegranates and Ashes by Gerri Leen
The Popaeg Dirge by Robyn Alezanders
Quetzalcoatl in a Cowboy Hat by Charlotte Ozment
The Sionan by Uche Ogbuji
Spirit Bottle by Colleen Anderson
Split by Jessica Jo Horowitz
teenage ghosts by Evelyn Deshane
tha may ask thee sen/At the Finish by Paul Brookes
Vanth: A Myth Derived by Kyla Lee Ward

Fiction
Bonfire Night by JA Grier
Languid Solstice by Brenda Noiseux
Lupercalia by H Pueyo
Wooing Wohpe by Ed Ahern

Essay
Eight Minutes to Reach the Sun? by Gary D Aker

Interviews
Kathy Crabbe, artist, astrologer, and spiritual counselor
Math Jones, poet and songwriter, creator of eaglespit
Lorna Smithers, author of The Broken Cauldron
Jhenah Telyndru, editor, author, and creator of The Avalonian Oracle

Reviews
The Broken Cauldron by Lorna Smithers [reviewed by Rex Butters]
Dim Sum Asylum by Rhys Ford [reviewed by Rebecca Buchanan]
The Madness and the Magic by Sheena Cundy [reviewed by Hayley Arrington]
The Madness and the Magic by Sheena Cundy [reviewed by Evelyn Deshane]
Neolithic Shamanism: Spirit Work in the Norse Tradition by Raven Kaldera and Galina Krasskova [reviewed by Erin Lale]
Pagan Portals: By Wolfsbane Mandrake Root: The Shadow World of Plants and Their Poisons by Melusine Draco [reviewed by Evelyn Deshane]
PS I Spook You by SE Harmon [reviewed by Rebecca Buchanan]
The Secret Life of Lady Liberty: Goddess in the New World by Robert Hieronymus PhD and Laura E Cortner [reviewed by Erin Lale]

The Last Libation

Dear Thomas,

27. cxd6 e.p.

Yours,
Nicholas

I curse, and crumple the letter. En passant, indeed.

“He who plays chess with the Devil should re-read the rulebook,” I mutter.

I nudge my adversary’s pawn one square diagonally. Raindrops hammer against the french windows, and a log fire crackles in the grate. A March evening at home, with a glass of ’69 Pinot Noir at my elbow, and Igor Stravinsky on the radio. Perfect for correspondence chess. If only I were better at it. Biting my lip, I consider my options. I can hunt the pawn down with my rook. But that weakens my defences elsewhere. Maybe I ought to continue the Queenside attack. Or …

Damn the inventor of en passant. Damn him to the darkest pit of Tartarus.

I lean back in my armchair, and sip the wine until my surly mood passes. From this vantage point, the board forms an elegant tableau. A ritual of sacrifice, never to be repeated. I pause, and savour the silky taste of the Pinot on my tongue. A generation raised on plastic and cardboard chess sets can have no appreciation for true aesthetics, but I am different. I notice things others do not. Why, the shimmer of the firelight on the white pawns–rendered as erect satyrs–sends my heart aflutter.

The pieces are real ivory, you know. Carved by my grandfather from a bush elephant he shot himself, in his East Tanganyika days. Interesting chap, my grandfather: started out in the Western Isles of Scotland, and cut a swathe from the savannahs of darkest Africa to the sugar plantations of the Caribbean. They do not make the likes of him any more, thank goodness. He left a coded diary too, leatherbound with gold lettering. I alone have read it. It made me the man I am today, snow-white hair at thirty and all.

I finish the wine, and mouth a silent prayer to the antelope head over the fireplace. There is time enough for games later. For now, a hot bath awaits.

***

Eyes shut, I let the water envelop my body. The heat soothes my muscles and washes away the tension of the day. The aroma of incense candles fills my nostrils. I still hear the patter of rain against the bathroom window. It calls to me, somehow, though I do not know why.

At length, I sit up, and pour myself another glass of Pinot. My dog-eared copy of Homer–in the original Greek, of course–lies on the bathroom chair, tempting me with its siren song. I towel off my hands, and reach for it with bath-wrinkled fingers…

“Thomas.”

My heart beats faster. It is him, standing in the door-frame, with his delicate hands on his hips.

I bow my head. “My lord.”

To the untrained eye, he is an effeminate youth with ram horns and furrowed brow, naked as the day of his birth. But I know better. This is Dionysus himself, son of Zeus, god of wine and madness. I worship him, as did my grandfather before me, in the old way. I alone of modern men have tasted the sweet bestial frenzy of his mysteries.

“Thomas, I grow impatient. It has been long since your last offering, and Anthesteria is here.”

“I apologise, my lord. But the police still hunt me.”

“Would you deny my divinity?”

I frown. “No, my lord.”

“Then what is the will of mortals beside the will of a god?”

“As nothing, my lord.”

His eyes gleam with an unworldly light. “Excellent. I shall return when my marriage is complete. For now, rejoice at the Opening of the Jars.”

A shudder passes through me. I down the glass of Pinot and laugh until my throat is sore.

***

The violence of Stravinsky ringing in my ears, I dance a tattoo upon the bathroom mat. Oh, that the bathwater beading on my chest and legs were blood. I splash wine over my arms, and lick it off, like a cat. The beast within purrs.

Before I leave, I tear pages from Homer, and scatter them in the bathtub. It serves him right. He never did mention sweet Dionysus.

***

Fools. The people of this town do not even smear their doors with tar, to ward off that which is coming. No matter, I reflect. They shall learn their error soon enough, and they cannot say I did not warn them.

I turn a corner. It is dark now, and I have other business to attend to.

***

The cell door clangs shut, and the key turns in the lock. Wrapping myself in the available woollen blanket, I seat myself on the cold floor — so white, so austere, so lacking in life — and curse in Greek.

“Sleep it off,” snaps the policeman. He is a bigger man than I. Fearsome, with thick curly hair on his head and hands, his sinews are as steel. Me … I am an aesthete, not a wrestler. My bruises are legion, and my knees are encrusted with dried blood. Thankfully, my wrists are too slender to have been marked by the handcuffs.

The door opposite opens, and a second policeman appears.

“Ted”, says the newcomer. This one is shorter and thinner, but carries himself as though his uniform were a size too small. Beneath the hat, he sports a narrow face, and his nose forms a kingly beak.

“Adrian.”

Adrian studies me through the bars, a twinge of disgust darkening his otherwise fine features. “This is the chicken-botherer, I take it.”

Ted nods. “Not just that. He was going door to door all across Ivy Lane, shouting warnings about tar. In the altogether.”

“Quite the piece of work. Should we fetch him some clothes? That blanket’s a bit threadbare.”

Ted shakes his head. “He’ll just tear them off again. We know about about this one round here. Guy’s a lunatic.”

“Back in Eastcress we’ve got a handful just like him. Padded cell and leather straps then?”

“Nah,” says Ted. “The Boss says he’s got friends in high places. Old money. Lives off his inheritance.”

I shiver. It is not the cold, though the police cell is drafty as my attic. I no longer feel cold, only the excitement of serving my lord. I rise, painfully, to my feet, and fasten the woollen blanket around my waist.

“Bring me wine,” I bark at them. “Just a cup, officers. Piety and Lord Dionysus demands it!”

Adrian smiles. “Not a drop for you, my fine fellow, this side of Church.”

“Don’t think he goes to Church,” says Ted. “Leastways, not a normal one.”

“I am in Church now,” I say. I grip the bars. “Would you deny me my faith?”

“After what you’ve done?” Ted asks. “I think I bloody-well might. Besides, we don’t keep alcohol on the premises.”

“Do you chew the whitethorn leaf?”

Ted knits his brows. “The what?”

I laugh. “No whitethorn. No tar upon your door. You court your doom!” I shake my head. Such as these are to be pitied, not scorned. “Why do you hate life so?”

“Life?” Ted shrugged. “I’ve nothing against it. But I do have something against naked drunks scaring little old ladies up and down the street. It was ten o’clock, man. What unholy thing were you doing in that chicken coup?”

“An offering. Death brings rebirth.”

“You needed eggs to make an omelette?”

I tear off the blanket, and stand before them naked. I am erect as a satyr, and my phallus rubs against the bars.

“My lord has found his bride.”

A cacophony of beeping. Ted backs away, and pulls a cellphone from his pocket.

“Hello, Pentheus Street Station. What? Where?” Moments pass. I watch as the blood drains from the big policeman’s face. “Right there.” He hangs up, shaking his head.

“There’s a riot,” he explains. “Or something, down on the corner of Vintage and Cemetery Roads. Talk of lost souls, the undead. Hauntings…”

Adrian frowns. “University students? Romero-cosplayers? But it’s early March, not late October!”

“Alex says it’s all hands on deck. Whatever it is, it’s scarier than a nude loon in a chicken coup.”

***

They leave me alone in the cell. I am too driven to sleep, so I drape the blanket over my body like a toga, and pace the cold concrete floor. My brain is consumed with failure: I could not so much as provide a simple chicken to mark my lord’s wedding. The mighty Cult of Dionysus, reduced to farce, and Euripides’ ancient tragedy culminating in modern bathos. I am a vandal, a barbarian, and that which walks tonight might as well take me too.

I shake my head. I will not panic, I will not despair. Dionysus has been good to me, and I have given him loyal service. Perhaps I may yet receive a second chance.

“Thomas.”

I stop pacing, and peer through the bars. It is him. I tense. But Dionysus does not frown. He grins. It is the wild, wholesome grin of a newly-wed bridegroom.

“My lord.” I kneel. “The blood shall yet flow. Your nuptials this Anthesteria shall yet be recognised!”

“They have, my dear Thomas.” There is no trace of anger in his voice, only joy. My heart skips a beat. Dare I hope …

Dionysus lifts his arm, and I see his meaning. Fingers curling into thick black hair, my lord clutches the severed head of Ted. The dead man’s eyes are wide open, his tongue hangs out, and his face is contorted with terror. Blood drips from the neck onto the police station carpet.

But the carpet has vanished. Replaced with lush green grass, and dandelions, and buttercups.

“We have triumphed, Thomas.” A monarch butterfly settles upon his shoulder. “After all these long and lonely centuries, we have triumphed.”

Tears run down my cheeks. “Thank you, my lord.”

“No,” he says. “Thank you. You, who followed me at my lowest ebb… rejoice, and partake in this new age of freedom. From now on, you shall never leave my side. For it is my world now.”

Then he is gone. The cell bars have turned into hanging strands of ivy. I push through them, and stumble out, towards the music of flutes.

***

The chains are broken. The old world dies. A new world is born. Naked, I am that new world, and none may touch me. I lick my wine-dark lips, and throw the empty Pinot bottle at the wind-shield of a burning police car. The dead walk tonight, and few now remember the tar and whitethorn.

I smell blood. Time to dance in the rain, upon the abandoned drug-store car park where the weeds now grow.

***

I have found the winning move: overturn the board. Burn the rule-book. There is no place for en passant in Dionysus’ garden. The next day, I set my grandfather’s satyr-pawns free amid the cabbage patch. Let Nicholas wail and gnash his teeth as he awaits the postman in the Underworld.

Overlooking what was once my house, my prison, there stands a lone fig tree. I have often visited this place, when I am in need. Today, the spirits of the dead are there too. I can feel them, even in the noonday sun, twisting and turning around the tree-trunk.

I sit naked and cross-legged beneath the tree’s branches. My feet are coated with mud, and the wind whips though my vines of hair. I laugh at all and none, and even the tomcats shun me.

“My lord,” I shout, over and over again, as I reach blood-stained fingers to the clouded sky. “Your will is done.”

And in the rustles of leaves, he answers me.

[Daniel Stride has a lifelong interest in literature in general, and speculative fiction in particular. He writes both short stories and poetry; his first novel, Wise Phuul, was published in November 2016 by small UK press, Inspired Quill. He also spends a fair amount of time on the internet, and can be found blogging about the works of J.R.R. Tolkien (among other things) at Phuulish Fellow. Daniel lives in Dunedin, New Zealand.]

Lorna Smithers

[This issue, we sit down with Lorna Smithers. In a follow-up to a previous interview, Smithers — Brythonic polytheist and devotee of Gwyn ap Nudd — discusses her new book, Gatherer of Souls; Arthurian lore; and her current project, a collection of writings by various awenyddion.]   

Eternal Haunted Summer: When last we spoke, you recommended that those interested in Brythonic polytheism look to original source material such as The Mabinogion. Are there any translations which are better than others? And can you recommend any good secondary sources, such as academic texts?

Lorna Smithers: For The Mabinogion I would recommend Patrick Ford’s translation as it contains an informative introduction explaining the mythological background of the stories and how they relate to the Brythonic Gods and Goddesses. Sioned Davies’ translation is also an excellent read as it captures the oral tradition of storytelling and performance.  Lady Charlotte Guest’s 1848 translation can be found online (1) and is a good place to start so long as the reader bears in mind that it is dated.

The four main books of bardic poetry (2) were translated by William Skene in 1868 and are also available online as The Four Ancient Books of Wales (3). This is a good starting place to get a taste of the poems but, again, these translations are considered dated. The best translations are Legendary Poems from the Book of Taliesin translated by Marged Haycock, Aneirin – Gododdin translated by A. O. H. Jarman, and The Black Book of Carmarthen translated by Meirion Pennar. 

As for secondary sources, Will Parker’s introduction to The Mabinogion online (4) provides a firm grounding and his The Four Branches of the Mabinogi give an in-depth analysis of the mythic, magical, historical, and political undercurrents. For a more Pagan approach to the Taliesin material, I would recommend Kristoffer Hughes’ From the Cauldron Born, John Matthews’ Taliesin: The Last Celtic Shaman, and Kevan Manwaring’s The Way of Awen.

EHS: If someone is interested in honoring the Brythonic Deities — or at least seeing if there is a connection — what is the best way to go about reaching out to Them and meeting Them?

LS: If someone felt a Deity was calling or felt called to reach out, I would suggest learning as much as possible about Them from the archaeological and literary records to gain a sense of Their nature and spend some time meditating on whether connecting with them felt right and what the consequences might be. 

If everything felt good, the ideal place for a first meeting would be one of the Deity’s sacred sites if it was nearby. If not a suitable spot in the landscape (ie. Brigantia is associated with high hills and Gwyn ap Nudd with woodlands) or a suitably prepared altar space (ie. with a candle with the Deity’s name on it or a drawing of them) in one’s home would be fine. I would advise the person to approach respectfully, speak the Deity’s name, make an offering (ie. food or drink, poetry or song), and spend some time listening carefully for their communications. If nothing clear came through I wouldn’t be put off and would keep an eye out for signs in nature and in dreams.

EHS: You recently released your third book, Gatherer of Souls, which centers around Gwyn ap Nudd. First, congratulations! Second, why an anthology about Him?

LS: Gwyn ap Nudd is my patron God. Soon after I devoted myself to Him I knew I needed to write Him a book. It was several years until I had the confidence to begin. At its core it is an act of service, but it was also born out of a need to share His myths, which are obscure, little-known, and heavily Christianised.

In the medieval stories and later folklore Gwyn’s role as a gatherer of souls and ruler of Annwn was obfuscated and, in the worst cases, he and his spirits were demonised — equated with devils and the Devil himself. Gwyn plays such an important role in guiding the passage of souls to the Otherworld. I believe it is because we have lost the ability to journey between worlds and access mythic wisdom we’re trapped in the metanarrative of capitalism and fear death. Our ability to walk between worlds is something Gwyn can help us reclaim. I wrote the book to wrest His stories from the pens of those who demonised Him in the hope of leading others back to Him and to Annwn and our deepest myths.

Also, whilst much has been written about Gwyn’s connections with Wales and Glastonbury, no-one else has paid any attention to the references connecting Him with the Old North. As someone who lives and first met Gwyn in Lancashire it felt important to reweave His tales back into the northern landscape.

EHS: Gatherer of Souls offers an entirely new and radical interpretation of Arthurian lore. Which story about Arthur do you think best encapsulates what is wrong with that mythology, and how did you go about reworking/reimagining/reweaving?

LS: Oh my Gods don’t get me started on Arthur! I guess my reading of the Arthurian lore seems radical because most people are familiar with the Arthur of romance and not with Arthur’s earliest depictions in Culhwch and Olwen (1090) and Arthur and the Porter (1100). Here he is a Christian warlord, the head of a band of thuggish warriors, who go out about systematically oppressing the Pagan gods and slaughtering the ancient animals, giants, and witches of Britain. He particularly persecutes those associated with Annwn; thus Gwyn, Pen Annwn — ‘Head of the Otherworld’ — is his arch-enemy.

The story which encapsulates everything wrong with Arthurian mythology is Arthur’s raid on Annwn. It is contained in The Spoils of Annwn (14th C) and cross-referenced in other texts.

Arthur raids the Otherworld with ‘three loads’ of men in his battleship, Prydwen, attacking seven fortresses. The conflicts are so terrible only seven men return from each. The ultimate object of his desire is the Cauldron of Pen Annwn, to which He leads the dead back to reborn. A parallel episode in Culhwch and Olwen suggests Arthur slaughters Pen Annwn, who, of course, doesn’t stay dead for long ….

It’s my belief Annwn and its Deities would once have been approached with reverence and respect. There would have been special words to its Gatekeepers, prayers, offerings, and rites, to its Deities. All this lore has been destroyed and replaced by a raid designed by Christians to prove Arthur’s domination of the Otherworld. It’s a travesty. It epitomises Arthur’s oppression of the Other and prepares the way for a whole new genre of knightly adventures in Annwn/Faery where the ‘hero’ slays dragons, hags, monsters, and eventually the ‘big baddie’ — the Lord of the Otherworld himself.

I spent a lot of time meditating on the Arthurian myths, journeying into them, learning the stories of those who Arthur has oppressed and rewriting them from their perspectives rather than in the voices of the oppressors.

EHS: How did you go about writing and compiling the collection? Did you have it all planned out ahead of time, or did inspiration strike as you were working on it?

LS: It simply started as ‘Gwyn’s Book’. In the beginning it was going to be an academic book based on my research into His lost connections with the Old North (5). Gwyn soon made it clear that was not what He wanted. Instead He wanted me, as an awenydd, to go beyond what is known about His myths to recover their ancient roots and to show how their influence continues into the 21st century.

I found my starting point when I recalled that the first time I journeyed with Gwyn He took me back to the Ice Age. Intuitively I knew that was where I needed to begin — with the hunger-gatherer people who venerated Him as a hunter god. Journeying back through the centuries, writing in the voices of the spirit-workers, wild men and women, and witches of Annwn who served Him and whose souls He gathered I slowly developed an Annuvian counter-narrative to the Arthurian mythos.

EHS: Were there any pieces that you could not include it the book? And which were the most satisfying to write?

LS: There were dozens of pieces I could not include. Of all the material I wrote, only a third made it in. I spent a long time working on the individual stories of the ancient animals, giants, and witches whom Arthur killed, whose souls Gwyn gathered, but realised there was too little of Gwyn in them. Ditto several pieces on Arthur’s influence on the Crusades. Gwyn didn’t want Arthur dominating His book! 

The stories I was absolutely driven to write were those about the witches of Annwn. Orddu, ‘Very Black’, lived in Pennant Gofid in the Old North and was the last of her lineage. She was slaughtered by Arthur, who drained and bottled her blood. Her story has long haunted me and I retold it in The Broken Cauldron. For Gatherer of Souls, I was guided to journey further back to tell the stories of her ancestors: Snow who followed the reindeer to Britain at the end of the Ice Age; Wind Singer who witnessed the invasion of the Romans and the battling of dragons. Writing at the end of the return of the last drop of Orddu’s blood to Pennant Gofid, thus undoing Arthur’s hegemony over all women who have venerated Gwyn and his spirits and worked Annuvian magic was immensely satisfying.

EHS: What sort of research went into the anthology? Stacks of books, lots of internet research, or long walks in the woods?

LS: I started out doing a lot of research, but soon realised it could only take me so far. Gwyn wanted me to go beyond the limits of academia to re-imagine his stories anew. This involved lots of meditation, lots of journeywork, lots of free writing, using writing as a method of revelation. Slogging through thousands of words of complete rubbish to gain just one spark of an idea. Walking, cycling, and running helped. And the bath. I recall having at least two breakthroughs in the bath after relaxing after a run.

EHS: You are currently co-editing Awen & Awenydd. Can you tell us how that is going, and what you envision for the anthology?

LS: Three of us are editing the anthology — Greg Hill, Lia Hunter, and myself. We are currently receiving and reading submissions. We have asked contributors for two pieces. The first is a piece of writing about how they became an awenydd. As this is the first book specifically about the awenydd path we felt it was important to have a variety of perspectives on how people were called to it and what it means to them to be an awenydd in the 21st century. The second is a piece of inspired writing, which can be poetry, prose, or personal reminiscences based on experiences with the gods and spirits and the living landscape and its inhabitants. Here we want to showcase visionary writing and its use to give voice to encounters with the Other. So far it’s going well. We’ve had some striking and original submissions in poetry and prose and are looking forward to receiving more. The deadline is the Winter Solstice and after that we will be selecting the pieces, editing, and compiling the anthology.

EHS: Which book fairs, conventions, or other events will you be attending in the foreseeable future?

LS: Next year I am going to be running a workshop on honouring Creiddylad as a Brythonic goddess of May at Beltane/Calan Mai at the Space to Emerge camp near Windermere in the Lake District. It’s also possible I will give a talk and help out as a volunteer at the Pagan Federation Conference at Preston Grasshoppers in July. I’m sure there will also be some poetry performances and other talks inbetween.

EHS: What other projects are you working on?

LS: The main project I am working on is called Porth Annwn, ‘Door/Portal of the Otherworld’. Unlike the mainstream religions and other Pagan traditions, we know very little about Annwn and what happens to the soul when it passes to the realm of the dead from the Brythonic lore. On Calan Gaeaf, I committed to spending a year and a day exploring Annwn and bringing back the stories of its people.

I’m also continuing to research and write about how the British myths relate to our current crises. Surprisingly, I’m experiencing a revival of my interest in the Western occult tradition and how this relates to the medieval Welsh texts. It keeps coming through to me that the Brythonic people never lived in a bubble and, of course, were influenced by what was going on throughout Europe and beyond. I’m looking forward to finding out where these new threads of discovery will lead.

Notes:
(1) http://www.sacred-texts.com/neu/celt/fab/index.htm

(2) The Book of Taliesin, The Black Book of Carmarthen, The Book of Aneurin, The Red Book of Hergest.

(3) http://www.sacred-texts.com/neu/celt/fab/index.htm

(4) http://www.mabinogion.info/four-branches.htm

(5) This research has been published on my blog – https://lornasmithers.wordpress.com/gwyn-ap-nudd/

Salt and Glass

[“Salt and Glass” by Jennifer Lawrence marks our inaugural Special Feature. It is our hope that these Special Features — specifically commissioned by EHS — will help to draw attention to the work of Pagan authors, many of whom are self-published or who release their work through small presses. If you like “Salt and Glass,” please consider purchasing one of Lawrence’s novels or poetry collections through Lulu.] 

Salt and Glass Part One: “Train Ride on a Long Winter Night”

The evening air was sharp as a new skinning knife as Ada stepped off the platform and into the main car of the last train of the night between Oslo and Trondheim. The Dovre line ran back and forth between the two cities several times a day, but she would only be riding as far as Otta before disembarking to continue further by other means.

She moved through the car with neat, sparse grace, a bag clutched in each gloved hand, her ticket clenched between the fingers of her right hand, as well.

She nodded politely as she moved past the berth where two well-dressed young women sat, having tea and chatting. The one in the Grecian-style dress with the pallid blonde hair nodded back, a bit of a smile on her face. The redhead in the tartan skirt and shawl and Jacobite blouse frowned, her expression a good deal more severe. Ada moved in the same general circles as the other two women, though the blonde was quite a bit higher up in the sort of social rankings their type judged themselves by –closer to the level of Ada’s mentor than Ada herself.

Ada heard the redhead mutter under her breath as she passed, and understood the Scottish word instantly. Troublemaker? Really? More like troubleshooter, I should think. Anyway, she has room to talk, after that business with the roses.

She took a berth four seats down. The bag containing her clothes went into the cubby under the seat, but she set her work bag down on the seat, between her and the train’s outer wall. She never liked to be far from it; there had been too many times that something or other inside it had suddenly come in handy, to say the least.

Ada sat, running her hands over the lap of the heavy skirt of pumpkin-colored wool she wore. The jacket matched, and the crisp, pressed linen blouse underneath was a brilliant canary yellow. The wool was soft but warm; she had dressed carefully for both the country and the season.

It was rare that she was asked to join her mentor at Yule; the last time had been almost a dozen years ago, and the time before that, longer still. When the ticket had arrived in the post, she had felt an unalloyed and childlike spasm of glee that she had done well enough this year in both studies and tasks to be called — well, not home. Her home, or at least, the place where she had been born and last called home, was both further south and east. His home, then. He had only come to the place she called home the once, the first time they had met when he had taken her into his service, and never again. She got the feeling that the lands that had birthed her were too hellishly hot for him — not unexpected, given what he was.

Other passengers trickled on in dribs and drabs as the train waited to take off. She could hear the colliers filling the coal car for the long trip through the mountains; her destination lay slightly southwest of Otta, where she would disembark. From there it would be a longer and colder trip, part of it in a sledge drawn by reindeer over deep banks of snow where there were no roads, deep into the mountains of the national park there.

A plump woman accompanied by her plumper banker husband herded a gaggle of children — ranging in age from three to thirteen — through the train car door like half a dozen geese. The children chattered and nattered and giggled among themselves as they were shooed along, peering at the others in their car, until the youngest spotted her and promptly started to shriek. The terrified wails startled parents and siblings alike, and the mother scooped him up with an abashed look as the boy began to cry. His father made a show of apologizing profusely to his fellow passengers, while the mother checked his feet and hands and chubby little limbs for stepped-on pins, scratches, or anything else that might have elicited such an extreme response. The boy had stuck the fingers of one hand in his mouth and was blubbering something over and over again about ‘the snow lady’ making him cry.

The Scottish gentlewoman seated with her highborn Greek companion looked smug.

Ada merely chuckled. She was pale, it was true, maybe even pale enough to be mistaken for snow — unlike her family and ancestral peoples, which was not a consequence of coming into her mentor’s service but rather a sign of breaking away from her family, home, and attendant issues — but she was hardly made of snow. Almost the exact opposite, really, and if her flesh felt a bit cool at the moment, she could chalk it up to the fact that she had been waiting out on the station platform for the train to arrive for over an hour. The nights were long at this latitude in December, and it had been dark out for some time.

The cold did not bother her much, however; it was a welcome antidote to the scorching summers of her desert homeland. Not all of her was pale; her hair was still long and thick and lush and black, unchanged enough from her younger years that her mother would have recognized it, if she were still alive. Or her children. She wore her hair currently coiled into a tight knot at the top of her head, covered with a hat that was secured with a hatpin decorated with gold and amber — her mentor’s stones.

She glanced out the window as the last few passengers boarded — workmen, travelers going home for the holiday, several other families, an elderly man with a beard that fell nearly to his knees and a knobbly walking stick carved with the head of a pike at the top. She averted her face in the hope of preventing any other potential incidents. It didn’t happen often; there were only a few types of folk who could see her as she truly was these days, and they were the usual sorts, the same kind that could see gods, or the Fair Folk. Poets, drunks, the mad, psychics, witches … and young children. Innocents. Hardly ever were the kids over the age of five; once they began their schooling, their minds calcified quickly, and the skepticism they learned clouded their vision.

It was not that she was malformed, or hideously ugly; neither was she beautiful in any particular way. She was an average-looking woman with dark oildrop eyes to match her hair — typical of the peoples in the lands where she had been born — and skin that had once been swarthy that was now pale as milk, or the moon, or the fat and puffy clouds that sailed the sky in summer like great ships. Her build was sturdy, honed by a life of hard work and having children, and she was barely five feet tall, her growth stunted by a childhood where both water and ample food were in short supply and, when available, mostly went to men.

A prickling glided along her skin as the porters loaded the last of the baggage into the rear cars — crates of corn, luggage, furniture, sacks of mail, and a tall, wide, thin wooden crate with ‘FRAGILE’ stenciled across both broad sides.

“Careful, Edith,” a soft voice came from near her elbow. “What is in that crate should not be looked at too long. It might look back.”

Ada glanced over her shoulder at the woman in the Grecian dress, who had risen from her seat and left her companion to hover near the window.

“I have not gone by that name in a long time,” Ada said automatically, “no more than you still go by Kore.” Her gaze flicked to the Scotswoman, still sitting in her berth with a disgruntled look on her face. “What of Janet? Did she come in her wood-blind husband’s stead at Nicnevin’s command? It’s unusual to see so many of us in one place at the same time without good cause.”

“The cause is good enough,” the other woman said quietly, “and there are more of us here than you think.”

Suddenly, despite the month and time of night, Ada felt a warm breeze against her face, carrying the scents of narcissus and heliotrope and hyacinth.

Ada looked more carefully at the last few passengers who had boarded the train car and taken seats. Under the shapeless workman’s cap, that fellow’s hair was fox-tail red, his clothes were an unexceptional, drab shade of grey-green, and the long case he carried at his side might have stored a hunting rifle.

Or a longbow.

Further down the carriage, swathed in blankets and curled into a tiny ball that nonetheless felt much bigger than it looked, sat an elderly old granny, smelling of boiled socks and roast chicken feet. Her teeth had apparently gone bad; when she smiled, eyes glinting, at one of the chubby half-dozen children who had come into the carriage right after Ada, bicuspids and canines alike glittered dark as old iron.

Further down still, on the opposite side, she spotted the barrel-chested, iron-legged form of the charioteer for Lugh’s son, a braid of alternating black and grey horse hair wrapped around his wrist like a good luck bracelet. Seated across from him was the old Geat — not the most powerful among them, but dangerous enough. 

“So many,” she murmured.

“Most of us are here to watch, and report back,” the girl who smelled of Spring said to her. “Came on our own, a few of us –” her gaze flicked back to the tiny, elderly woman whose dark teeth seemed longer than they had a moment ago; that one did not come or go at anyone’s orders, and even the highest of the high would think long and hard before offending her, “– or were sent by those who hold our loyalties.” She had turned away from the window. “When a new one of us joins the assemblage, or some item of power rises out of the depths of lost history, it is a moment to pause and reckon.”

“What’s in the crate?” Ada asked absently. The workmen had carried it into the rear car of the train, to stash with the rest of the freight.

“The Horned One’s son thinks it a painting,” the woman said, her voice dwindling as she faded back to her seat. The engine was rumbling as the train geared up to leave the station. “But I smell no paint, not even old paint. I smell glass, malicious and silvered and cold.”

A mirror, Ada thought. The workmen had carried the crate as if it was not only fragile but heavy — heavier than old canvas stretched over a thin frame of wood should be.

There were plenty of stories of magic mirrors. Almost all of them bode ill for this trip. The most beneficent of them had still been only neutral at best, a tool for gathering information and salving the ego of an aging queen, answering questions posed in rhyme. In the hands of that queen, it had been a thing of malign power; in the hands of her sweet-faced stepdaughter, a smarter woman, it became a mass of broken shards in a trash heap. This was likely not that glass … but there were plenty of others.

Ada turned in her seat to her workbag, undoing the clasps and throwing it open. The train lurched as it began to move, and dozens of tiny bottles inside clinked together musically. The bag had once been the sample case of patent medicines, with little leather loops and small wooden niches and slots to hold bottles and phials and ointment tins in place. 

It had taken her decades — no, longer — to gather together all the substances in the bottles in her case. Cures and preventatives for every possible illness, ailment … or situation. Poisons and sedatives to drug or kill the most dire of monsters. 

The little bottles were lined up neatly, pristine labels in her tiny handwriting: powdered iron and silver, wolfsbane, mugwort, dried whole mandrake roots, eagle and falcon and raven feathers, shed snake skins, dried rowan and hawthorn berries, coffin nails, a piece of deer antler from the stables at that quaint factory at the North Pole, sandalwood and frankincense and myrrh (as well as a piece of gold from that same triple gift), a piece of silver from a somewhat darker payment thirty-three years later, and so much more. A complete accounting of all the bag somehow hid in its depths might take days. A hundred or more bottles and tins of substances used in magic to ward things off, or banish them, or summon them … or kill them.

But what was wanted for shattering a mirror was not a poison or a drug, but a hammer.

Such a tool was forbidden to her, of course, by the one who commanded her loyalties.

Ada bit her lip, tasted salt, loosed her teeth from her own flesh and licked it clean, then reached into the bottom of the bag. Swathed in soft, creased old chamois was a lump of stone half again as big as her fist, carved lines and curves able to be felt even through the thin suede. She had dug it out of the layers of detritus and muck on the floor of an old cave in the wilds of Germany, and unwrapped, the primitive figure clearly bore the shape of a woman — rotund, fertile, faceless, but oddly compelling nonetheless. Touching it with her gloved hands was enough to make her palms and fingers tingle.

She never touched it when her hands were bare.

But, of course, her hands were never bare.

The stone would work well enough, thrown or smashed against the surface, to shatter any ordinary glass, though Ada supposed this was no ordinary glass. Not the way merely watching it be carried past had caused the preternatural raising of every hair on her arms.

Then again, this was no ordinary stone.

Still, she had seen and heard of magic mirrors whose reflective surfaces could turn to mist to let a missile pass through without damage, or open like a door so a panicking villain might pass to escape, or go liquid to swallow up whoever touched it. Some even showed distorted reflections that mocked and capered and moved on their own. A simple lump of limestone would not do much damage there, even the enchanted visage of an old, nameless goddess who had last been worshipped when humans still wore fur fresh off the beasts they killed, yet damp with blood.

However, it was better than no tool and no weapon. She could feel a half-dozen sets of eyes on her as she tucked the lump of rock into one of the deep pockets of her skirt, and closed up the bag.

She looked up into an iron grin that was far, far too close for comfort, and somehow managed not to flinch or gasp. The old grandmother usually associated with the wandering hut, the mortar-and-pestle air travel, and light contained in a skull had crept up on her without the tiniest of sounds — and no warning from the other travelers, either.

“And what have you gotten there, sweet child?” the crone asked, her voice a rusty cackle.

Ada chose her words very carefully. The iron grandmother was quite possibly the most powerful thing drawing breath in the train car, possibly as powerful as the rest of them put together, and certainly more powerful than she was; the ageless Russian woman had centuries of experience under her belt, whereas Ada had become special only because another had seen fit to save her from her own stupidity after she had looked at something she had been told not to.

“A stone, taken from the womb of the earth, that was once dear to others,” Ada said in her most subdued and dulcet tone of voice.

“Such a pretty thing. It reminds me of my mother,” the crone cackled. “You’ll make a present of it to me, won’t you?”

Ada did not blink. She did not suck in a breath or swallow hard or piss herself, though her body considered all of those responses.

“I’m sorry, grandmother, but I can’t,” she said with perfect politeness. Dimly, she wondered if whatever threat the mirror represented was greater than the one she was talking to. “It doesn’t belong to me. Nothing I have does, including my own self. All that I bear with me is the property of the one that owns me.”

The crone’s expression darkened. “And you think that the Man with the Tattered Smile is more powerful than me? Me?”

“It is not a matter of power, grandmother,” Ada said, her words honey-sweet. “If I stole what belonged to Him, how could anyone then trust in my honor? How could you be sure I would not steal from you, some day?”

“You might try,” the old woman said coldly. “You would not succeed.” She hmphed. “Very well. Keep your old rock, for all the good it may do you. Rocks freeze, too.”

Ada dipped her hand into the pocket of her coat and brought out her own dinner, a mutton sandwich on soft bread and a square of sweet honeycomb, all wrapped in wax paper. “In apology for my lack of a gift, grandmother, perhaps you might like a morsel to eat? Soft wheaten bread, the tenderest of young lamb, and honeycomb?” she offered.

The woman’s nostrils flared at the scent of the food, her long nose quivering. “Did you prepare this, child?” she asked.

“I did, grandmother.”

The woman turned her back on Ada. “Too much salt.”

Ada’s lips thinned in a tight line, but she kept any retort she might have made to herself. Insulting the crone for her rudeness would only have given the old woman an excuse to tear her limb from limb and take the stone, and Ada valued her renewed life — even after so very long — to lose it to a moment’s temper.

She guessed it would be a bad idea to share bread and salt with the old woman, anyway. She couldn’t trust the Slav not to break the bond of trust it offered.

The train whistle blew and she looked up sharply. The landscape outside her window was no longer still; the train was moving, if not smoothly, and snowflakes whirled down thickly in a giddy tarantella. She grimaced. It was bad traveling during a blizzard, which her old bones told her this had the potential to turn into, swiftly. If the tracks iced over —

Troubled, she tucked her food back into her pocket, but only to dispose of later. She wouldn’t eat it now that the crone had laid eyes on it and rejected it; a single bite might spill venomous serpents or stinging hornets into her throat. One did not take back a gift offered to the mighty ones, even if they didn’t take it.

Hornets and snakes would do less damage to her than it would most passengers on the train, but that still didn’t mean it would be pleasant.

After her heartbeat had returned to its normal rate — slightly slower than chilled molasses — she sat in her seat and stewed. She wondered, now, whether her mentor had known that the mirror was going to be on this train. It wouldn’t be the first time he had arranged for her to be in the way of an impending issue so she could deal with it for him. That implied either inside knowledge — harder to come by, here in the frozen North — or foresight, which was not his forte. He left things like prophecy and foreknowledge to his blood-brother.

It would be easier to plot an appropriate response to whatever threat the mirror posed — assuming it was a mirror — if she knew which Dread Glass it was. Aside from the one that she knew for certain had been destroyed, there were at least three others named in the various lores, legends, myths, and fables of the world — plus who knew how many others that had never made it into the tales.

Mirror-like objects could be just as dangerous when face-to-face; like mirrors themselves, they took easily to enchantment. But most of those she knew about could be ruled out due to extenuating circumstances. The pool of still water into which Narcissus had gazed for so long that he withered away and became a flower, for example, couldn’t exactly be transported intact to other locations. Likewise, the shield Perseus had used to reflect Medusa’s own image back to her and turn her to stone was in Athena’s possession, Ada had heard; while not as dangerous as the Gorgon’s severed head itself, the grapevine whispered that every so often, it would release a blurred, warped, partial reflection of the monster’s face, her hideousness trapped in the polished bronze forever. No one who saw even an imperfect glimpse of that visage went on to a happy ending. But there was no chance, none, that anyone could have stolen the shield from Athena without Ada having heard of it. It would have had such a huge impact that it would have been the only news on everyone’s tongues for years.

She steepled her fingers together. Of the three mirrors she knew of, the cursed mirror that had belonged to the Fairy Lady of Shalott was currently in the hands of the half-incubus wizard who had guided Arthur, in a cavern far below a distant mountain in Wales. The haunted mirror that held the ghost of a murderous wench named Mary had been banished to the wilds of the former British colonies. The third, the mirror in an old French castle that had once been the abode of Prince Bete, was cousin to the one owned by the Evil Queen, save even weaker. It could answer no questions, only show distant locations and the people there. It was true that mirror had since disappeared, but another detail besides made it unlikely to be the one that had been loaded onto the train; that one was a hand mirror, silver-handled, small enough to fit in a lady’s handbag, and weighing no more than a couple pounds.

None of the three really struck her as the Jonah that had been loaded into the freight area of the train. For one thing, none of the three mirrors were as dangerous as some of the ones historically that had since been destroyed. The one a merchant’s daughter had once watched her father and sisters through was largely harmless, though if a viewer saw something through it that upset them, it could cause trouble. The cursed glass of Shalott was a danger only to faery women of a particular bloodline, and so far as she had learned, that bloodline had ended with the death of the ballad’s eponymous victim.

Mary’s glass was far more dangerous; the ghost trapped inside it could and had killed before. But to emerge from the mirror and do harm, someone — usually young, and usually a woman, though the ghost was less prone to be particular if it had been awhile since it last killed — had to call her name three times. That had been the entire reason for sending the glass to America, where no one knew the legend and the name, though Ada supposed eventually the story would get around there, too.

The other thing was that most magical artifacts were at least loosely tied to the cultural neighborhood of their creation. The last time someone had tried to steal the Glass of Shalott from the cave where it resided, guarded over by the Machiavellian spirit of Arthur’s old counselor — people were stupid enough to try it, from time to time, though not often — they found the mirror wrapped in the supple limbs of a young willow tree that had sprouted from the cavern floor. The tree was still clad in the thief’s clothes. The mirror itself had put down roots that irrevocably tied it to the pan-Celtic lands since the time of its creation. Trying to remove it from there had ensured that the would-be thief had put down roots, too.

And trees needed sunlight, which was generally in short supply in caves. The tree had died just a couple short weeks later.

Really, she thought, she could afford to be relieved. Even glad. If some of the old mirrors from the stories hadn’t been destroyed, the possibilities would be a lot wors —

She froze in her seat, not even realizing that, for a moment, she had forgotten to keep breathing.

Shattering didn’t end the threat for every mirror.

Indeed, one story right from this corner of the world — insider information! her mind shrieked — stated outright in the opening paragraphs of the story that a ‘sprite’ — often read as the Devil — had created a mirror that retained its power in every shard and speck after its shattering. It had showed everything it reflected as distorted and warped, so that anything good or beautiful became ugly or vile. After the sprite that had made it, and his students, tried to drag it to Heaven to mock God and the angels in its surface, it had been dropped from that great height, and broke into a million pieces, great and small. But even the ones no larger than a grain of sand retained the same power as the entire unbroken glass. 

And the smallest pieces were blown about by the wind. Some settled in peoples’ eyes, and after that they could see only hideousness, wondrous things spoiled and disgusting because of the glass. On at least one occasion, a tiny shard had been blown into a person’s heart … and that was infinitely worse. The chill of the mirror was like ice, and he became numb to decent feeling, becoming selfish, cruel, and violent — in short, a psychopath.

“Damn Hans Christian Andersen to the abyss,” she muttered. ‘Fairy tale’ was such a loaded term. The oldest of such tales were thought to be hundreds, maybe thousands of years old; Andersen’s were of more recent vintage, and it was commonly thought that he had written them himself instead of recording them from oral tellings, as had the Brothers Grimm and Straparola and Andrew Lang and Charles Perrault. 

And yet ….

Some of the people and beings in those tales were real. Ada had met several of them herself.

The Snow Queen, thankfully, was not one of those, and yet, the mirror had really existed. Ada had seen a fragment of it once, small as a grain of — well, salt — glittering on black velvet under lock and key.

She had felt seized by an instant spasm of greed, wholly unlike her, and had groped blindly for a way to unlock the display case — and then the electric bond of the oath she had sworn to her mentor had kicked in, banishing the shard’s hold over her, and she had been calm and composed and controlled once more.

The Snow Queen’s mirror had been shattered, though, and the crate she had seen carried into the rear of the train —

… well, presumably, it was whole. But she didn’t know for sure, did she? All she had seen was a wooden crate marked ‘FRAGILE’, carried as if it was heavy.

“I have to go back there and see,” she murmured to herself.

She contemplated the task. The train porters would likely be back there, and disinclined to let her open a logged piece of freight, no matter how important her reason. 

But she needed to see.

Mind made up, she rose from her seat, turning toward the end of the train to make her way down the aisle —

— and that was when the world turned upside down as the train derailed.

End Part One. Please return for our Summer 2019 issue to enjoy Part Two.

 

Shadow Rock

Vivian Carlyle’s parents divorced in the fall of her freshman year of High School. 

Every year since the divorce, her mother had taken her to spend the Christmas holidays at her Aunt Carol’s house in Peebles, a forgettable little town in the Ohio River Valley sixty-four miles east of Cincinnati. 

Every visit began the same way. Vivian’s mother would pull into the driveway of her sister’s small white farmhouse, honk the horn, and Aunt Carol would peek out the back door wearing a heavy grey wool cloak and black rubber boots. 

“Look at that old crone,” her mother would say as she smiled and waived to her older sister. There were only ten years between them, but with her bristle brush grey hair, large hooked nose, and sunbaked face Carol looked like her mother’s mother.   

“Come on inside you two, it’s too damn cold out there for city folks,” Carol would say as she waived them inside her kitchen. A pot of dump stew — made from whatever her aunt could find to dump into it — would be simmering on the stove. 

The kitchen was Vivian’s favorite room in the house. The shelves were filled with jars of herbs that her aunt grew in her garden, and dried plant branches hung like bats from the wooden rafters. The sweet smoky scent of burning leaves always hung heavily in the air. 

As they stepped into the house, her aunt said, “How are you feeling, sweetie? Do you want me to fix you some tea?”

Aunt Carol loved making tea, and seemed to have cure for anything that ailed you. Cough? She would make you tea with thyme, lavender, and honey. Got your period?  She would brew up some chamomile, ginger, fennel, and dragon’s blood—it wasn’t really blood her aunt said, just the dried resin from Dracaena trees. Vivian thought her aunt’s concoctions tasted like something you scrapped off your shoe, but they worked.

“I’m good — I just need a signal.” Vivian walked around the house holding her cell phone high above her head like an evangelizing preacher holding a cross. 

“It’s not going to kill you to put that thing away for a few days,” her mother said in a way that sounded like she had said it a thousand times before. 

“Yeah, whatever…” Vivian knew it was no use, she had never found a signal on their previous trips, but she had to try. 

There wasn’t much to do around Peebles, so on mornings when it wasn’t snowing, or too bitterly cold, Vivian liked to take walks along the back roads that weaved through the countryside. She never found anything too interesting, but there was a small dairy farm near her aunt’s house where she liked to stop and watch the black and white spotted cows as they lazily munched on stacks of winter hay. She had been fascinated by cows ever since Mrs. Bruton, her seventh grade biology teacher, had taught her class that cows had four stomachs and could live off of eating nothing but grass because they digested the plant matter over, and over, and over again. That is all she could think of as she watched them eat. Four stomachs! 

She was leaning against an old wooden fence fancily wondering if she could survive off of nothing but french fries if she had four stomachs, when she noticed a shiny black Mercedes driving slowly down the road toward her. 

The long sleek sedan pulled of the road and came to a stop beside her, and the passenger side window slowly slid down. She was too curious to be afraid as she swept her long brown hair back and bent over to look inside. 

To her surprise a young man was behind the wheel. He had pale blue eyes and two day’s worth of blonde stubble clinging tightly to his square set jaw. 

“You ain’t from around here are you?” he called out. 

“How’d you guess,” she said, cautiously stepping closer to the vehicle. 

“Because you stand out like a peacock in a chicken pen.”

Vivian looked down at the three hundred dollar pair of Ugg boots she had guilted her father into buying her for Christmas, and realized that, along with her designer jeans and expensive Gore-Tex jacket, he was right, she did stand out. But so did he. 

“Well, you don’t look like any of the guys around here either.” All of the other boys she had seen in Peebles wore Carhart jackets and cowboy boots, and drove rusty old pickup trucks.       

“That’s because I’m not like any of the other guys around here.” 

No, you most certainly are not, she thought as her tongue ran hungrily along the inside of her cheek. 

“Where’re you headed?” 

“Nowhere really. I was just watching the cows.”

“I like cows too, you wanna grab a burger?”

“Burgers are gross — and I don’t even know you.” 

A flirtatious smile swept across his angular face. “I’m Casey. You got a name?”

“Vivian.”

“Okay, Miss Vivian, now that we know each other, do you want to go get something to eat with me? My treat.” 

“Only if you promise to never call me Miss Vivian again.”

“That’s a deal.” He leaned over and opened the passenger side door. 

As she slid into the supple grey leather seats she marveled at the polished wood trim and hand stitched leather, she could feel all of her inhibitions silently slipping away. “Nice ride. Is it yours?” 

“No, it’s my dad’s. But I get to drive it when I’m home on break,” he said as he pulled the sleek black automobile back onto the gravel road. 

She turned to get a better look at Casey. He was tall, and had the lean, understated muscularity of a wrestler. He was wearing a red plaid shirt under a white quilted vest and faded jeans. She noticed an Ohio State logo embroidered on the side of his vest.  

“Ohio State, huh?” She drew a little circle above her left breast with her finger. 

“Buckeyes, baby. Where do you go to school?” 

“Walnut Hills — High School.”

“High School?” he said incredulously. “You don’t look like you’re in High Schoo l… you’re a senior, right?”

“Sure.” she giggled.  

“Damn, maybe I should take you back to your cows.”

“Up to you — if you can’t handle it.”

He turned his head and let his eyes roam slowly over her young blossoming body. She was tall, for a girl, and he could see the sensual curves of her hips straining under the tight confines of her designer jeans, and the subtle swell of her burgeoning breast protruding out from underneath her thick winter jacket. “I think I can handle you.” 

“I doubt it,” she replied playfully as they pulled into the parking lot outside of Pete’s Burger Barn. A small, dilapidated looking sheet metal building that sat alone alongside the Appalachian Highway. 

Vivian looked up at the ancient yellow plastic menu boards that hung above the register. There were faded red Coca-Cola logos on the sides, but the boards were empty. “What’s good here?” she asked the old man standing stoically behind the counter. His short grey hair was tucked neatly under a greasy billed baseball cap, and he was wearing a large white apron that swallowed his small withered frame. She guessed he must be Pete. 

“You got two choices, little lady,” he said in a quite tone of authority. “You can have a hamburger or a cheeseburger.”

“Can I just get some fries?”

“You want a Coke with that, sweetie?” 

“Do you have Fresca?” she asked.

Pete gave her a befuddled look, “Fresca?”

“She ain’t from around here, Pete. She’ll have a Coke, and I’ll have the usual.”

“Wow, such a gentleman.” She turned and gave Casey the look, the one she reserved for people who say stupid things. 

“Hey.” He put his hands up defensively. “I’m just trying to help you out. They’re not used to catering to aristocrats around here.”

“Says the boy in the Benz …” 

He grinned so hard it looked like his chin was going to fall off. “You’re going to be trouble, aren’t you?” 

Casey wouldn’t be the first boy she had fallen for, but she had never fallen this far this quickly. She was tingling all over as they got their food and walked over to a table to sit down. It felt like a thousand tiny arrows of electricity were shooting through her body.

“So, what do you think of our little town?”

“Ummm, it’s all right I guess,” she said, not wanting to offend him. In truth, she thought Peebles was as dull as dishwater. “But there’s not much to do around here.”

“Not much…but there are a couple of things. Do you want to go see something really cool after this?”  

“There’s actually something cool around here?”

“Have you ever heard of Serpent Mound?”

“My Aunt said something about it, but I wasn’t really paying attention.”

“It’s a low dirt mound shaped like a snake. Indians built it a long time ago.”

“Wow, dirt. That is cool.” 

  “You’ll like it,” he said. “I promise.” 

She wondered why anyone would want to look at some old pile of dirt, but she didn’t care what it was as long as going to see it meant spending more time with Casey. He wasn’t normally her type, she didn’t usually go for older guys, but he didn’t act like the one who had hit on her before. He wasn’t stuck up, or full of himself. He seemed nice. It didn’t hurt that he was gorgeous, charming — and a little mysterious. She liked that. After they finished their food they waved goodbye to Pete and walked back out to the car. 

He opened the door for her with an exaggerated flourish. “Your highness.”

She giggled as she glided inside and he shut the door. 

“Is it far?” she asked, hoping it was. 

He started the car and pulled back onto the road. “We’re pretty close, it won’t take long,” 

They didn’t speak much during the drive, but she felt completely relaxed, which was strange, because she was usually as nervous as a cat in a cage around cute boys. But Casey was different. She knew that the moment she peered into the window. Her mind drifted into a creamy soft haze and it seemed like only a few moments had passed before they were pulling into the parking lot in front of the monument. They got out of the car and walked up to the historical marker that stood at the entrance to the site: 

OHIO HISTORICAL MARKER

Serpent Mound is a gigantic earthen sculpture representative of a snake. Built in 1000 A.D. by an unknown ancient culture, the earthwork was most likely a place of worship dedicated to a  powerful  serpent  spirit. The  site is located on the edge of a massive  crater  created  by an  asteroid  300 million  years  ago.  

“Why would anyone want to worship a snake?” she asked. 

“In ancient mythology snakes were symbols of fertility — and the Earth Goddess.”

“Earth Goddess?”

“Yeah, kind of like Mother Nature, but more of a badass.”

“That’s cool … I guess.”

Casey took her by the hand as they walked along the path that wound around the long curving effigy. The low grass that covered mound was partially obscured under a light frosting of snow. “I think there’s more to it than that though … the Indians were scared of something. They built this place as a warning.”

“For what, to watch out for snakes?” she said, giggling. 

“In a way.” His face tightened and his eyes turned very serious. “Do you see how the head of the snake points out toward the valley?”

“Yeahhh,” she said cautiously. 

“The asteroid struck the ground so hard it left a crater a mile deep and ten miles wide. It changed things around here. The rocks, the soil, everything in this valley has a strange—energy to it. That’s why I think the Indians built Serpent Mound at the edge of the crater; they knew this place was cursed.”  

Oh, now I get it, she thought. Casey’s story sounded like the ones, usually about escaped axe murderers, the boys back in Cincinnati told girls as they walked them home at night. She fluttered her big brown eyes. “I am sooo scared. Will you protect me?” 

“Maybe not, you little brat,” he said as he wrapped his arms around her and leaned in for a kiss. 

They’re all the same, she thought just before their lips met. Or not — she suddenly felt dizzy as the hardness of his body pressed against her. His hands slid around her waist and began to drift slowly up inside her jacket. She didn’t want him to stop, but their solitude was suddenly shattered by the sound of chattering children.  

“It looks like we have company,” she said, pulling away. 

“Damn little turds .…”

“Hey, don’t be like that,” she said playfully slapping his arm. “They’re just kids.”

“Sorry, but things were just getting interesting.”

“Speaking of interesting … is there anything else to do around here?” 

“There’s Shadow Rock.”

“First some dirt, and now a rock. You really know how to show a girl a good time.” 

“This isn’t just some ordinary rock.”

“Oh yeah, what’s so special about it?”

“For most of the year, nothing. But tomorrow — on the winter solstice — when the sun is at its highest point, something incredible happens. The rock casts two shadows. One away from the sun, like normal, and, just for a few moments, it casts another one …toward the sun. It’s really amazing.” 

“Two shadows huh? Does that story work on the local girls?” 

“Seriously, I’ve seen it myself.”

“Okay, I’ll play along. Where is this magic rock?”

“You see those hills over there?” He pointed out toward the middle of the valley. “Those hills, and the land around them, have been part of my family’s farm for generations. Shadow Rock is on top of that large hill just to the left of the others.” 

“Farm? I didn’t think farmers drove Mercedes.”

“I guess we can thank the asteroid for that. It hit the earth so hard that it actually raised the bedrock up at the center of the crater, creating those hills. A few years ago we discovered that there are massive fissures in the rock beneath them that allow natural gas to make its way up near the surface. We have a few wells now. I suppose you could say we aren’t farmers anymore.”

“Kinda like the Peeble-ly Hillbillies?”  

He smiled at her like she smiled at her dad’s jokes, and let out a deep sigh, “I think it’s time to take you home.”

It was only four o’clock, but the sun was already sinking beneath the horizon. They left the park and headed back toward the dairy farm. They didn’t talk much during the drive back either, but just being with Casey made her feel different—more like a woman, than she did with anyone else, especially her mother, who still treated her like a little girl. 

It wasn’t long before they were back on the gravel road near the dairy farm. Casey pulled the car over and parked along the fence under a large oak tree. 

He leaned in toward her and began to tenderly kiss her neck. She felt an intense, aching desire shoot up from between her legs like a burst of hot steam as his tongue danced teasingly along her skin. 

“Oh, wow … that feels great, but my aunt’s house is right up the road. I don’t want her and my mom to see us if they come driving by.”

“I know some other places we can go.”

“I bet you do, cowboy. But it’s getting dark. Let’s wait for tomorrow, then you can show me this — rock of yours.”

“Okay, but we have to be on top of the hill tomorrow exactly at solar noon to see the shadows, so meet me here at ten o’clock, alright?”

When she opened the car door she could hear the hollow sound of cowbells bells ringing gently through the cool dusk air. “I’ll be here, with bells on,” she said.

“Hey!” he yelled out to her as she began to walk away. “Don’t tell your mom, or anyone else, about me yet, because .…”

“Yeah, I know,” she shouted back as the car slowly pulled back onto the road.  

The short walk back to her aunt’s house seemed so surreal. That morning she had been bored and alone, now her heart was beating furiously as her mind wandered back through every moment of the time she had spent with Casey. Something strange was happening inside her. Her heart felt like it was where her stomach used to be and her lungs had fallen into her feet. She wasn’t sure if it was love, but she wanted it to be. 

When she walked in the door to her Aunt’s house she could see her mother sitting alone at the kitchen table. There was a bottle of Gin and two half empty jelly-jar glasses in front of her. Her mom took one look at the smile on her daughter’s face and knew. 

“Where have you been, missy, did you meet a boy?”

“No, I have just been out walking around.” She tried to conceal her shock. Was it that obvious?

“What happened?” her aunt asked as she walked into the kitchen holding one of her funny cigarettes.  

“She met a boy.” 

“She did?” her aunt replied, giving Vivian a sly wink.  

“No, I didn’t! God, Mom, what is your problem?”

“Okay, dear. Whatever you say.”

“I’m going to go lay down for awhile.” Vivian bounded quickly up the stairs toward the bedroom she was sharing with her mother. 

“I hope he’s cute!” her mother yelled up after her. 

She could hear her mom and aunt laughing downstairs, but she didn’t care. For right now at least, Casey was hers, and hers alone. She didn’t want to share him with anybody.  

The next morning she woke up early and took her time getting ready. She had not planned on meeting a boy yesterday, especially not one as handsome as Casey; now she wanted to make sure she looked her absolute best. She brushed her long brown hair carefully, put on eye shadow and lipstick, which she had not been wearing the day before, a blouse (that her mother always complained was too tight), and the jeans that her friend Jenny said made her butt look good. She looked herself over in the full-length antique mirror that stood in the corner of the room. The young woman staring back at her was much prettier, and more sophisticated, than the girl who had gone out to watch the cows yesterday — and Jenny was right; the jeans did make her butt look good. 

When she was satisfied, she went downstairs and told her mother that she was going out for another walk around the countryside. Her mother just smiled and told her to have fun. Vivian knew her mom didn’t believe her, but was glad she didn’t make a big fuss about it. She wanted this day to be perfect.  

She arrived early and stood along the fence watching the cows until the gleaming black Mercedes pulled up at exactly ten o’clock. 

“Morning, beautiful,” Casey said as she slid into the car. 

“Hey, handsome,” she said, blushing wildly.  

Casey reached over and grabbed her hand. “Are you excited?”

“I’m excited to see you.” She squeezed his hand back tightly. 

“Is that all?’ 

“And, uh — the rock.”

“You’ll see,” he said. “You’ll see .…” 

They sat silently holding each other’s hands and smiling as he drove. It wasn’t long before Casey pulled off the road into a long driveway with an enormous iron gate in front. He reached up and pressed a button on the visor and the gate magically began to swing open. Behind the gate she could see rows of well-manicured bushes, and statues that looked like the Greek gods and goddesses they had studied in her ancient history class, lining the road into the sprawling estate. 

“There’s the house.” Casey pointed to a large two-story red brick mansion with six tall white columns lining the front. “We’re heading up to that big hill back behind it.”

  As they passed the house, the long paved driveway gave way to a smaller gravel path that lead up to the base of the hill. After they parked and got out of the car, she could see the faint signs of a trail that disappeared quickly into a large stand of trees. 

The serious look she had seen on his face the day before had returned. “Follow me, and try to keep up,” Casey said as he began making his way up the hill. 

The rocky trail was heavily overgrown and muddy from the melting morning snow. She quickly realized that she should not have worn her fancy boots and put on so much makeup as she began to feel the perspiration running down her cheeks. Vivian put on a brave face, but she wasn’t outdoorsy, and had trouble keeping up with Casey as he moved swiftly up the hill. She was about to tell him to forget it; no rock was worth this much trouble…but just as she was ready to give up, they emerged out of the thick brush into an open clearing at the top of the hill. She could see a large black rock protruding slightly out of the ground several yards in front of them. The top of the rock appeared to have a smooth, mirror like surface that shimmered brightly in the crisp late morning sunlight. 

“Is t-t-that it?” she asked, trying to catch her breath. 

“It’s incredible isn’t it?”

“It’s friggin amazing…” 

“Come on, you have to see this,” he said as he walked toward the stone. When they were within a few feet, he stopped and looked at his watch, then up at the sun. He grabbed her by the shoulders and positioned her parallel to the sun and the rock. “Do you see it?” he asked.

“See what?” She stared at the rock and the lone shadow stretched out behind it.

“Look, look at the shadow behind the rock,” he said excitingly. “Now, look in front. Do you see the other shadow starting to come out? Do you see it?”

“Ummm, not really.”

He took her by the hand and led her up beside the rock. “Go ahead and climb up on top, your shadow will be easier to see.”

“I thought you said the rock cast a shadow?”

“The rock, or anything on it,” he said, sounding agitated. “Now come on, hurry up. It’s almost time.” 

She was certain that this was all part of some elaborate trick he was playing on her, but she wanted to make him happy. “Sure, why not,” she said as he helped her climb up on top of the rock. She stood on the stone’s flat shiny surface and faced the sun. She looked over her shoulder and saw a long grey shadow stretching out behind her, as there should be, but then, to her surprise, another shadow began to slowly creep out from the stone in front of her, as if there was another sun at her back. She looked behind her, and then quickly to the front, behind her again, and to the front, trying to understand out how it was possible — but she couldn’t. She raised her left arm, and both shadows raised their left arms, she raised her right arm, and both shadows raised their right arm. She was stunned. 

“It’s crazy right?” he said. 

“It’s wonderful.” She held her arms out to her sides and began to twirl slowly. 

Casey watched as she reveled in the splendor of her twin shadows. 

“Casey, come join me!”

“You’re having too much fun. Besides, it’s almost noon.” He looked down at his watch again. 

“Watch this.” She began to throw a series of karate kicks and punches at an imaginary foe. “Hi-Yah! Yah! Waaa-Yaaah!” Both shadows followed her every movement as her arms and legs flailed wildly. But then, in the midst of her ferocious flurry, the shadow in front of her suddenly froze in mid-kick. She turned to Casey, “Is it over?”

He had backed away from her and was standing at the edge of the clearing. “I guess you could say that…it’s time.” 

“Time for what?” 

Her frozen shadow slowly began to change shape, stretching out across the entire length of the clearing until it resembled the ghostly outline of a long slithering snake. She tried to leap off the rock, but the shadowy serpent had coiled itself around her ankles, gripping her feet firmly to the surface of the dark black stone. She could not tell where her body ended and the rock began. 

“Casey, help me!” she shouted, but he didn’t move. 

“I’m sorry Vivian. When the asteroid struck it opened a hole in the earth, and bad things, really bad things, got out. That’s what the Indians were trying to warn us about.” 

“Casey! Why are you doing this?” she cried in horror as the dark shadow continued to slowly coil its way up her body.

“I had to. My family, the people of this valley, we have always had to. If we don’t sacrifice a young virgin on the winter solstice, the serpent spirit will come down at night and take one. We can’t afford to give up our own. Not anymore.” 

“Please, please help me!” she pleaded. “I just want to go home!”

“It’s not up to me, you were chosen.”

“What are you talking about? Get this thing off of me, you bastard!” 

“If you want to blame somebody, blame your aunt. She’s the one who told the coven about you. She said the goddess would love you … and she was right.” 

Vivian tried to scream again, but the shadowy apparition had wrapped its body tightly around her neck and was slowly crushing her throat. She gasped for breath as her vision began to contract into tiny pinholes of light, and her heart, which had been beating frantically, slowed steadily until its beats faded into the ethereal darkness. She waited for death to come … but it strangely never did. Her body was gone, she felt it slip away — like a snake shedding its skin — but her mind, her consciousness, was somehow still alive. She could feel the rustle of the wind across the tall grass, and sense the gentle swaying of the trees. She could hear a butterfly’s wings fluttering above her. Her senses were in total harmony with the natural world around her. She was part of the rock now — part of the earth itself. 

[John Kojak received his BA in English from The University of Texas. His short story “Don Pedro” appeared in Beyond Imagination magazine, “American Hero” in Down In The Dirt, “Beauty and the Beast” in Third Wednesday, “Happy Hands Cleaning Service” in Bête Noire, and “Elizabeth Beatrice Moore” in Pulp Modern. His poetry has also appeared in Poetry Quarterly, Dual Coast, The Stray Branch (featured writer), The Literary Commune, Dime Show Review, The Los Angeles Review of Los Angeles, Chronogram, and Harbinger Asylum.]

The Broken Cauldron

Title: The Broken Cauldron
Publisher/Author: Lorna Smithers
Price: £6.99 (UK), £8.49 (international)

“What will you learn from its mysteries? Has it not already given you enough dark secrets? Secrets that could destroy your world?
What lies in the cauldron now you have done away with the knowledge of wise women? Split the witches in half? Killed the giants? Driven to the seas the most ancient of boars? You are on the wrong quest, looking for the wrong grail, the cure-all that does not exist.
Why don’t you go and take a long hard look down the darkest mines of yourselves?” -The Head of Annwn, from The Broken Cauldron

If only Arthur and his plundering/blundering rogues heeded the spot on advice of the Head of Annwn, the infliction of so much grief and devastation could have been averted. Sadly, careless murder and inhuman cruelty employed to seize resources still dominate our national priorities, millennia since these warning tales came to be told. Brythonic Poet Lorna Smithers, taps into some serious Awen to demonstrate the urgent contemporary relevance of these teachings from the Mabinogion, in her compelling new book, The Broken Cauldron.

Its brief 102 page journey covers an extraordinary range of material in various voices and formats, and rewards repeated readings. Mirroring the chaos unleashed by Lleog’s sword, myth fragments, poems, personal stories, synchronicities and contextual mashups build the book’s structure to create a bracing mix that educates, entertains, and inspires. Her scholarly curiosity leads the reader through an accessible mix of chemistry, archeology, geology, sociology, poetry, history, and linguistics, weaving resonant trends through the entire work.

Smithers concisely expresses her antipathy towards the marauding mentality demonstrated by the legend’s heroes:

“Whilst Taliesin is venerated by Druids as the spirit of the Awen incarnate, slipping effortlessly between worlds and forms, little attention is paid to the cost his theft exacts on the land and its inhabitants.

Taliesin epitomizes all that is questionable and dislikable about the Bardic Tradition. I would rather identify with Avagddu than with the thief who refuses to learn from his mistakes and whose selfish greed can only lead to the world’s end as Ceridwen swallows everything.”

Instead of focusing on marquee figures Arthur and Taliesan, Smithers rebirths the marginal and side figures in the tales, giving clear voice to under-drawn characters such as Hygwydd and Afagddu. Many old Northern European tales survived as entertaining heroic epics for feasting warriors. By shifting the narrative from applauding avaricious adventuring in the service of empire, she exposes richer sources of meaning within the tales.

Smithers composed a remarkable section entitled, the Last Witch of Pennant Gofid, in which she lays to rest the bones of Orddu, a powerful warrior witch killed by Arthur’s knife, cleaving her top to bottom. They bottle her blood and skin her, then leave with the cauldron for which they came. Smithers has reclaiming and vindication in her heart and mind:

“… the splitting and bottling of magical women for over a thousand years. Draining of our blood. Boiling of our flesh. Testing if we float. Giving us The King James Bible and The Malleus Maleficarum. Taking away our prophecies and visions, gods and goddesses, our fighting strength. Confining us to virginity and chastity belts. Cutting us off from plants and spirits, rocks and rain, rivers and mist, other worlds.
Over a thousand years on we are but shadows of ourselves. Mirrored pouts tottering on high heels. Watching ourselves on selfie-sticks. Worshipping televisions. Still split in half, bottled, boiling, floating, banging to get out.”

The passionately articulate epic builds to the drumming anthemic, “fire of poetry and consolation:
“we have broken the jars.
Our blood is no longer contained
by the tyrants of Arthur’s court.
We are winning back our flesh,
our magic, our strength,
remembering our gods.”

In Ridiculous, she poignantly addresses the modern dilemma:

“It’s ridiculous, isn’t it?
Not the trawling. But the way I continue to live a life I know is absurd, supporting the unfair structures of establishments I do not believe in (white noise in my mind, cotton wool in my ears), not listening, not remembering, knowing it’s wrong, as my truth slips away like a distant ship and I’m left in a world that is paper thin?

Listen to the poems.
Remember the voices of the gods.
Mistakes are not unchangeable and in the deep no word is lost.”

Later, Smithers inhabits one of the Nine Maidens, who can no longer abide raising battle dead for sake of continued fighting, and sabotages the process. An adroit shift in voice/character reveals Ceridwynn’s son, Afagddu, and his reframing of the Cauldron’s destruction as a contemporary chemical spill. An inspired contextual twist takes Arthur’s servant, Hygwydd, to the chemical weapons battlefield horrors of World War I Europe.

Shape shifting to a raven, Afagddu relates the chilling and unsavory true story of a vile sea based lab that tested chemical and biological weapons on animals. They ineptly exposed a passing ship to plague virus. Rather than immediately quarantine the exposed crew, they were instead monitored in secret and allowed to mix with people where they made port! The gag order came from no less than Churchill’s proxy. And, the program that tested the pathogens at sea? Operation Cauldron.

An evocative poem, “Stairway to the Stars,” embodies an involuntary military LSD test subject at the infamous Porton Down lab. A personal story, In Silent Springfiields, Smithers writes of the shock of discovering that she lives within biking distance to the plant that produces fuel for most UK reactors, and has since producing fuel for the world’s first commercial nuclear power station in 1956. Her research finds measured high levels of local radiation, and increasing childhood leukemia,

What begins in a starry cauldron, ends with a science lesson describing the birth of uranium in star burst. She juxtaposes the knights’ abuse of the underworld with the brutal process of uranium mining. A fascinating sidetrack gives the reader a view of 2 billion year old fission reactors that have developed naturally in West Africa. Of the 17 that withstood time, only one remains, the rest mined out of existence by the French.

Lorna Smithers’ bardic fire burns away the blinders. Her non-linear narrative and graceful facility changing voices whet the attention while building her thesis with steady momentum. Her poetic skills create a language with a rolling resonance, like a spell, that breaks with the timeline ending at some future point that she casts as a new beginning. The book is a pleasure to read, grounding exhaustive scholarship with crisp sensual detail. She’s not only studied the language of Myth, she speaks it.

As the author says,
“These stories flash their warning as man-made climate change drives the runaway train toward drowned lands. As fracking threatens to rock the earth and cause new floods they form a desperate signal to sober up, slow down, stop the train.”

[Reviewed by Rex Butters.]

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Raikou and the Shi-Ten Doji

[Author’s Note: This is a retelling of three interrelated folk tales transcribed by William Elliot Griffis before 1887. The language is modern, but the spirit is hopefully still close to what he wrote, and in turn to what a Japanese story teller might have related from his bamboo curtained stall in Yanagi Cho. My native-speaking Japanese friends tell me that we Anglophones have been getting the name wrong in our translations. Raiko uses the feminine ending on the name [true]. They suggest using Raikou instead, being more masculine and closer to the Japanese pronunciation. I’ve used Raikou, but if beaten upon would change it back to the traditional [in English] Raiko.] 

A long time ago the capital of Japan was Kyoto, the city of blossoms. The Mikado and his court lived in Kyoto, a place of beautiful shrines and temples. But the capital was troubled with many thieves and murderers who snuck through the city gates at night.

Even worse were the evil imps, called onis, with horns, and long fangs, and tiger skin loin cloths.  These onis would prowl the Kyoto streets by night, grab people by their hair, drag them through the Rajo-mon gate into the mountains, rip the meat from their bones, and eat it. The young women they did not eat they kept as slaves.

The bravest captain of the Mikado’s city guard was Yorimitsu of the Minamoto family, called most often Raikou. And the bravest of Raiko’s guardsmen was Watanabé Tsuna. It was Tsuna that Raikou ordered to guard the Rajo-mon gate at night.

Tsuna took his post at the red pillar of the Rajo-mon gate and watched. The night was filled with heavy rain and wind, and the lacings on Tsuna’s helmet, armor and sandals were soon soaked through. But wet or not his carefully honed sword could slice through a drifting hair.

Tsuma kept his watch as the great bronze bell of the temple on the hills tolled the hours. A single massive stroke rang the hour of the rat- midnight. Two hours later the hour of the bull sounded, and an hour later the hour of the tiger.

The driving rain had softened, and as Tsuna became less uncomfortable he also became more sleepy. He shook and pinched himself, and even pulled his little knife from the wooden scabbard of his short sword and pricked his leg repeatedly, but no use. He leaned against the red pillar and fell asleep.

An oni had been squatting on the cross piece on top of the gate waiting for this chance. He slid down the pillar like a monkey, grabbed Tsuna’s helmet with his talons and began to drag him through the gate.

But Tsuna was awake in an instant. He grabbed the hairy wrist of the imp with his left hand, and with his right hand drew his sword and, swinging it over his head, sliced off the demon’s arm. The oni howled with pain, jumped back on top of the gate and disappeared into the clouds.

Tsuna waited, clutching the severed arm in one hand and his sword in the other until dawn broke, but all was quiet. The sun began to brighten and dry the pagodas and temples and gardens of Kyoto, and the nine circles of flowered hills as well.

When Raikou saw the arm he praised Tsuna highly and rewarded him with a silken sash. But then Raikou said, ”Kiotsukeyo- “Be careful. For an oni’s arm can still rejoin its owner within a week of being cut off. Lock it up, and watch it night and day.”

So Tsuna went to the stone cutters who make images of Buddha, and mortars for pounding rice, and coffers for burying money. He bought a heavy stone strong box with a grooved lid that slid out only after touching a secret spring. He had the strong box carried to his bed chamber and put the oni’s arm in it.  Watanabé Tsuna locked his house gate and all his doors, and kept watch day and night, never letting anyone see the box who was not known to him.

Six days passed quietly, and Tsuna began to think that the arm was already his trophy. He ordered that the box be taken from his bed chamber to his day room. He took off his armor and put on his court robes, and twisted a fringe of rice straw as a token of victory.

Late that evening there was a feeble knock at the gate outside Tsuna’s room. “Who’s there?” he called out.

The squeaky voice of his old aunt replied. “Just me. I want to see my nephew and praise him for his bravery in cutting off the oni’s arm.”

Tsuna let her in, carefully locking the door behind her, and helped the old woman into the room. She knelt on the tatami mats, close to the strong box, and began to praise Tsuna for his skill. He felt very proud.

Now all this time the woman’s right arm was covered by her embroidered wanpisu, but she waved her left arm as she talked. His beloved aunt began to beg Tsuna to see the arm. He said no at first, but finally gave in because of his affection for her, and slid back the heavy stone lid.

“That’s my arm!” yelled the old woman, who grabbed the arm and, changing into an oni, leaped up to the ceiling and jumped through the smoke hole in the roof. Tsuna ran out of the house to shoot at her with an arrow, but she was already in the clouds, grinning horribly back at him.

When Raikou heard of this he deduced that the demons were hiding in the mountains of Oyé  in the province of Tango, and decided to go after them. But just as he had made up his mind he fell sick, and each day grew weaker and paler.

When the onis heard of his sickness they sent a monster to torment Raikou-an imp called Mitsumé Kozo. This imp had a double snouted hog nose, three hideous blood veined blue eyes and a wide mouth full of tusks.

The imp snuck into Raikou’s bed chamber and began to leer horribly at him, sticking out his warted tongue and pulling down the blood veined lids of his three eyes with his hairy fingers. Raikou lay in the bed, seemingly too weak to move. The imp crept closer and closer until Raikou, with what little was left of his strength, pulled his sword out from under the bed sheets and sliced into Mitsumé Kozo’s double snout. The imp howled and ran away, leaving a trail of blood drops.

Tsuna and the other guards congratulated Raikou on his blow and then immediately set out to track down and destroy the imp. They followed the blood drops a long way, until they came to a cave in the mountains. Inside the cave they could see a spider, six feet tall, with legs as long as fishing rods and as big around as daikon radishes. The spider had two great yellow eyes like camp fires and a gaping sword slash across its snout.

Tsuna knew that if they tried to fight in close to the spider they were in danger from its claws. So he tore a thick sapling out of the ground and holding it like a lance ran at the spider, pinning it in the sapling’s roots. The other guardsmen tied up its long thick legs and then stabbed it to death.

By the time they returned to Kyoto Raikou had recovered from his illness. From a gold brocade bag he took out the commission he had received from the Mikado.

“Reikou,sonata ni oni taji o meizuru-I command you, Raiko, to chastise the onis.”

Raikou, Tsuna and two other trusted guardsmen disguised themselves as Komuso, wandering priests of the mountains. They put large straw hats, shaped like wash bowls over their helmets, and covered their armor with cheap peasants’ clothing. Then, after worshiping at the shrines, they marched off into the pathless mountains of Tango.

These mountains were desolate, for no human went into them except for an occasional woodcutter or charcoal-burner. There were no bridges over the rivers and many steep crevasses to cross. But Raikou and the three guardsmen didn’t hesitate, felling trees to cross the streams and making vine ropes to lower themselves into the chasms. Finally, high up in the clouds, they came to a dense grove of trees.

They found a pretty girl washing blood-spotted clothing in a stream. “Why are you here?” they asked.

“Ah,” she sighed, “you must go at once. Demons live here, onis that eat the meat of man. They will eat yours as well. Look!” she said, pointing to a pile of white bones. “Go down the mountain faster than you came up.” And then the girl burst into tears.

Raikou was touched by her sadness and beauty. “How is it that you are living among these cannibal onis?” he asked.

She blushed and said sadly, “They eat men and old women, but keep the young women to wait on them.”

Raikou patted his chest where he kept the brocaded bag with the imperial order.“Please show us the way up the cliff to the den, so that we may avenge your shame and cruel treatment, as well as the deaths of the loyal subjects of the Mikado.”

They had climbed two hundred feet when the path suddenly turned and they were in front of the castle entrance, a doorway built between massive boulders and covered with vines and mosses. When they glanced backward, far, far below and away they could see the red pagodas, white temple gables and castle towers of Kyoto. Without fear, they walked up to the onis guarding the gate and demanded to see the chief oni, the Shi-ten doji. The guards leered and admitted them, thinking that a future meal had just walked up to them.

When they had filed through the doorway they discovered that the oni’s castle was really an immense cave, with a banquet hall able to seat hundreds of people. The floor of the banquet hall was covered with sea-green mats of rice straw, and the walls with hangings of fine silk. On the tatami mats were tables and silk cushions, arm rests and drinking cups, everything needed for a feast.

At the end of the hall, on a raised dais, seated on cushions stuffed with swans’ down, leaning on a solid gold arm rest, was the Shi-ten doji. He was a demon of stern and horrible appearance, with a bright red body that was round and fat like a grown-up baby. Two short horns poked through his soot black hair.

Standing around the Shi-ten doji were a dozen young women, as pretty as any Raikou had seen in Kyoto. Their faces did not completely conceal the misery they felt but could not show. And other girls and young women stood next to each of the onis in the hall. These onis were seated or laying full length on cushions waiting for their lunch and drinking sake from men’s skulls.

Lunch was brought in by other onis- human flesh still on its bones. The onis all began to eat, gnawing meat from bone and making a noise like the pounding of a rice mill.

Raikou knew that he needed to lower their suspicions, and volunteered to dance “The Kyoto Dance” for which he was famous. He stepped into the center of the hall with a fan in one hand, and danced so gracefully and easily that the onis screamed with delight and clapped. Even the girls and women forgot their troubles and smiled at the beauty of the dance.

When the dance was over and Raikou had received the congratulations of the Shi-ten doji, he took out a bottle of sake from the folds of his robe. “This,” he said, “is the best wine in Sakai. Please drink it with my compliments.”

The Shi-ten doji accepted the wine and drank heavily. He addressed the other onis in the hall. “This is the best liquor I ever tasted. You all must also drink.” And each of the onis took a full drink, also swearing that it was the best sake they had ever tasted.

But Raikou only smiled to himself. For the best herbalist in Kyoto had drugged the wine with a powerful sleeping potion. In very few minutes the Shi-ten doji and all his onis were asleep, snoring like rolling thunder in the mountains.

Raikou and his guardsmen whispered to the girls and young women to leave the banquet hall. Then, drawing their short swords, they stepped from oni to oni, silently slitting their throats. When they had killed all of the other oni, they gathered in front of the Shi-ten doji. Raikou turned toward Kyoto, reverenced the Mikado, and drew his long sword. He swung with all possible strength, and sliced completely through the Shi-ten doji’s neck, severing its head.

The bloody head flew up into the air, gnashing its teeth and rolling its yellow eyes. The horns on its head sprouted to an impossible length. Its jaws began opening and snapping shut. The head whirled around the hall several times and then flew at Raikou’s head, biting through the straw hat and into the steel helmet. But its strength was spent, and the head dropped to the floor with a thud.

The guardsmen examined Raikou’s head, but he was unhurt- the helmet had protected him. The four men gathered and buried the bones of the victims, setting up a stone marker on the spot. Then they divided the onis’ treasure equally, set their castle on fire, and assembled the girls and young women for their return march to Kyoto.

When the girls were restored to their families many desolate homes were made joyful, and many mourning garments were put into storage. The Mikado honored Raikou by making him a Kugé, a court noble. And this story began to be told.

Owari

(the end)

[Edward Ahern resumed writing after forty odd years in foreign intelligence and international sales. He has his original wife, but after forty-five years advises that they are both out of warranty. Ed dissipates his free time fly fishing, shooting and attending German, French and Japanese language groups.]

The Sweetest Thing

Tonight is a night for stories, and I’ve got a story to tell. Imagine a quiet mountain town, with a quaint little mountain hotel.

The woman adjusted the strap of her bag, and shifted her posture to accommodate the added weight. She walked toward the hotel entrance. It must have been about 1am, nearing bedtime for most guests. And judging by the taxis returning to unload groups of staggering men, it must have been nearing the close of bar time too.

After her long trip, she was ready. Very soon she would be in cozy pajamas sprawled out on a king bed. She loved such business trips: short and sweet, with lots of down time. But first, she wanted to unwind for a bit. In a place like this, that meant sipping something laced with liquor, while she enjoyed the quiet of the grand fireplace.

The hotel lounge was contemporary cozy and spacious, peppered with a few night owls: a teenager mumbling into a cell phone, an elderly man weeding through a newspaper, a couple sharing a bottle of wine near the bar. Her eyes lingered on them for several moments, the way they smiled into one another, the way they caressed.

The bartender was reading from a hefty text book. ‘Good evening, Madam,’ he said as she approached. His eyes shone with a dreaminess she recognized. He inquired: ‘hot cocoa with amaretto?’

‘Please,’ she whispered. She watched the brisk movements of his body as he prepared her drink. The mug he slid her showed a muted beach scene, with Wish I Was Here scrolled in bright lettering. She brought it slowly to her lips. The aroma was like heaven.

The bartender was eying her eagerly. She tipped him well, prompting him to flash a suggestive smile. Men were always grinning foolishly at her. Too young, she told herself, smiling back involuntarily as she turned away. And too innocent.

Settling into a large leather sofa, she sipped her drink and stared into the flames. They spoke to her sometimes, in crackling hisses barely registered by the human ear. The fire’s panting warmed her feet and ankles and continued, slowly, to move upward. Allowing herself a few minutes of silent indulgence, she felt appropriately placed—or, she wondered, perhaps positioned would be the more suitable word, given the circumstances.

The firelight seemed to glow brighter in her presence. Although she became aware of the familiar, faint-yet-growing apprehension, the serene ambience could not help but draw a few pleasant sighs from her chest. She measured her breaths, directing the elemental exchange, in and out. She waited. She knew the next step would inevitably be a disruption of her solitude—essential to a suitable evening, though it may have been.

‘Scuse me,’ said a smooth southern accent, ‘this seat taken?’ A man, tall, donning casual business attire, sat down next to her.

Had she not been so actively engaged in self-soothing, this abrupt interruption might have been more akin to an invasion. But on a cool night such as this, in a plush setting such as this, there was little that could truly rattle her. She summoned a smile and a shrug, returned her attention to the dancing inferno.

‘I came down for a nightcap,’ he explained, shaking the clinking contents of the cup between his fingertips, ‘and realized I could not pass up an opportunity to sit by this lovely fireplace and such a beautiful woman. Hope you don’t mind.’

He leaned back into the cushions, which groaned beneath his weight. She noted darkish hair, thinning a bit in front, and a strongish build. He was not bad looking—though his nose was overly prominent on his face, a face which seemed to hold a permanent sneer.

He sucked a breath, audibly, between his teeth. ‘…Yep, in town for business. Energy, you know: oil, gas, coal and whatnot,’ he continued, as if responding to a question. ‘Two more nights here in the Appalachians, then on to D.C. Not a bad little city, this one. Sometimes it’s a bit boring. But sometimes…’ She could feel his eyes moving over her. ‘Sometimes it can get exciting.’

‘I’m Tyler, by the way,’ he offered in a bleary tone. He seemed to snarl certain words. ‘From South Carolina, by way of the lone star state. What’s your name, gorgeous?’

So it was to be a southerner this time. She debated whether or not to lie. ‘Astrea,’ she answered.

‘I like it!’ He exclaimed, inching closer to her. Then he rose suddenly, his stance unsteady. ‘Ok, hold on. Let me get us drinks before that little fella closes shop. You keep your sexy self right there,’ pointing a long finger in her direction. He chugged his whisky and left her.

Sitting all by herself had been relaxing and invigorating; she was able to gather her thoughts, to imagine the way events might transpire on this night. But she knew the loneliness could never last long. This was the way it always went. Men were drawn to her like moths to the flame.

The muscles in her face flexed momentarily, then released. Weren’t they foregone conclusions, then, these fated meetings? Still, she thought, surrendering to a bemused sigh, did she not sometimes enjoy this flirtatious game of cat and mouse—still, after all these years?

She was contemplating this and other ironies when Tyler returned. ‘Screw-driver?’ he asked with a wink.

She nodded politely and took the drink from his scuffed hands. After such peculiar, ritual transactions, she always felt slightly obligated to at least talk with them. The man sat so that their legs were touching. She found this slightly disconcerting but decided to say nothing. He smelled of musk, tobacco and some faded, earthy cologne. Plus a hint of belligerence.

‘I have more drinks in my room, when we run out,’ he whispered with another wink. His breath was bullion and bourbon. Then he patted her knee with a heavy hand. ‘I’m just playing with you, girl.’ His drawl now had a definitive slur to it.

For the next twenty minutes she listened while he droned on about his home, his upcoming promotion, his gun collection, and a few underhanded hints as to why he preferred to remain single. With a slight yawn and stretch of her neck, she realized they were the only ones left in the lounge, apart from the disappearing night manager.

Tyler must have noticed he was losing her attention. ‘So what’s your deal? What brings you to the mountains, babe?’

She was his babe now, this man who she knew had no real interest in her or her specifics, perhaps other than the color of her undergarments. And although this brought a bitter taste to her mouth, it also made her feel a bit tired of pretending and hungry for company. And his company was, it would seem, just the right company for tonight.

The drink he brought was tart on her tongue. ‘I do contract work…’ Too vague. ‘…And I write,’ she added, clearing her throat. She was practiced at not revealing much of herself. Already too many unanticipated truths passed between strangers in lounges—or other places haunted with spirits.

This drunken stranger had somehow maneuvered his arm around her. ‘Oh yeah? I do some contracting myself,’ he said with a sly grin. He dragged his fingertips along her shoulder. ‘What are you writing,’ he asked in a low, sultry tone. There was no warmth in his touch.

She considered this. ‘Love stories.’

He snickered, shaking his head slowly. ‘Women and their goddamn love stories.’ His tone betrayed more than a soft hostility. He leaned toward her, seemed to sniff the air around her, lips curving upward. ‘Ain’t that the sweetest thing? … Tell me, are you having fun tonight, basking before this glorious blaze,’ he asked, mockingly, gesturing with the hand that squeezed his tumbler. ‘I want to hear some of your stuff.’

She leaned away from him and exhaled deliberately, turning back to the fire. ‘You can’t always get what you want, Tyler’ she whispered.

‘I can,’ he said, with a stern edge to his voice. ‘C’mon gorgeous, let’s hear an original line.’ She tilted her head to look into his eyes for the first time. They were steely. Storms stirring up a cold sea.

She stared into him, unblinking. ‘The latest story is inspired by a piece from Maya Angelou.’ She spoke as if caught in trance. ‘…Love arrives, and in its train come ecstasies, old memories of pleasure, ancient histories of pain. Yet if we are bold, love strikes away the chains of fear from our souls….’

Tyler gaped at her, gulping his drink. ‘What in the hell! Too abstract and gushy for my taste,’ he said with a hearty laugh.

‘It’s sort of a tragic love story,’ she said smiling a little. The tension had been broken. They would be friends again.

Tyler smiled widely, his face full of intent. ‘You’re kind of different, unique. I like that, girl!’ He nudged her with his knee.

Oh I could be anything you want me to be, she thought. But she knew she did not need to be coy in order to get what she wanted, and she was not in the mood to waste any more time. She could sense his mounting anxiousness.

‘Listen,’ he said, turning to face her, ‘I have some top shelf spirits in my suite. It’s big, very comfortable. I think we should take our conversation upstairs. The company got me a great room—and it even has a decent sitting area.’ She took a sip, raising her eyebrow.

‘I promise to be a complete gentleman,’ he said, taking his arm back. ‘We can just hang out, watch a movie on the big screen and enjoy some drinks. And when you get bored, you are free to leave me, even though that would make me…’ he pouted ‘sad.’

She finished her second drink and shook her head, feigning disinterest.

‘Ah, come on. I won’t hurt you.’

She searched his eyes, as if measuring the risk. ‘Ok. Fine.’

‘Ok!’ He sounded giddy. They stood, and she let him take her bag. ‘Phew, watcha got in here, stones?’ He strained as they walked to the elevator.

‘Work stuff,’ she said.

The doors opened at the fourth floor. ‘Now, I don’t usually invite strangers to my hotel room.’ He was lying. An awkward silence followed them down the hall.

The suite was indeed lovely for a suburban hotel. It had three distinct rooms, all visible from the foyer—a sizeable bathroom with a raised hot tub, a sitting room that featured an oak desk and picture window, and a lavish bedroom, wherein she could see clothes scattered across a four-post king bed. She glanced about, pretending to look impressed.

He placed her bag by a mosaic coffee table and motioned to the velvety couch. ‘Here, sit. I’ll make drinks.’

She watched him move to the mini-bar. She paced a bit, studied a wall mural of a lonely cottage surrounded by trees, listened while he fussed with glassware and ice. Their backs to one another, she wondered what he looked like without clothes and then scolded herself for such brash curiosity. She preferred all of this to happen a certain way, and she would need to stay focused to ensure that everything went smoothly.

Feeling more resolute, she moved to the couch.

Smiling, he met her there with two glasses, and handing her the one with a bit more drink to it, he said, ‘Cheers! To sexy new friends and late night possibilities.’ Together they tipped their heads back to swig the double-shot with one exerted gulp.

He winked at her, and this time, she winked back.

Then. Darkness seemed to engulf the room and them with it.

* * *

Thunderclap. Inside. Head. So heavy. Body aching, stretched.

Tyler opened his eyes only to find his vision significantly blurred. His brain was foggy, and there was quiet darkness all around him.

He tried to muster strength in his limbs, while attempting to piece together the where of where he was and the why of why his limbs felt so stiff and immobile.

Tied. His wrists and ankles were tied to something… the bedposts… at the hotel. Yes. Synapses were firing now. The last time he’d been tied to bedposts was during a holiday trip to Vegas. And that type of service hadn’t come cheap.

But this didn’t feel like some kinky game; for reasons not entirely clear to him, he felt like he was in real danger. His heart raced. Pull it together, he ordered himself. He racked his brain: he’d met a woman… they’d walked to his room together… they had drunk together, the special blend he often made for his female guests.

After that, nothing; the rest was blank. Had she switched their glasses—had he given her the wrong one, accidentally?

No, this couldn’t be happening. Not to him; he was careful. He twisted his hands and feet but his restraints were firmly secured. How in god’s name had she managed to knock him out, to overpower him? And how had he, at his height and weight, been lifted into the bed—especially when the girl should have been passed out herself?! Impossible, all of it.

Then it struck him: she must not be alone after all. That lunatic slut has some lunatic partner. Probably, they’d robbed him and taken off with his wallet and watch. Son of a bitch, he thought angrily.

His room was totally silent. Were they still there? Detecting no other presence, he guessed he was alone. He started to wriggle and writhe again. But before he could work at his bindings, fear froze the efforts.

His alarm and attention leapt to a far corner of the room, where a match blazed to life. In his haze, Tyler could make out the shape of the woman, lighting a small candle. It filled the dark space with dim illumination.

* * *

‘What the hell is going on? Untie me, you nutjob!’ He had tried to yell, but, instead, the words left his throat in a hoarse whisper. He was taken aback. ‘I can’t—scream?’ It was a question and a statement, both.

He watched her move slowly to the nightstand. She didn’t look at him; she started rummaging through her bag. He could hear metal and plastic objects moving. Her hand emerged with something long and gleaming.

‘Help!’ Again, the hoarse whisper. Adrenaline quickened his mind to a certain lucidity. What was it you were supposed to do in these situations: negotiate with the captor?

‘Please. Let me go,’ he begged, bending the syllables to sound endearing. ‘I can give you money, honey. Just tell me what you want.’ He smiled weakly and tried to focus enough to read her face as she leaned over him.

‘Hey, I—I thought we were gonna have some fun…’ The woman bent forward so that her face was inches from his own. She looked different somehow, other-worldly.

‘Fun?’ The word escaped her mouth like a song. ‘You do like to have fun with girls, don’t you. Feeding them drugged cocktails before you make them part of your hellish amusement.’ She sighed, shaking her head. ‘See, I know all about you, Tyler. The nightmare fantasies you’ve created. And tonight, I’ve decided to bring you into mine.’

She placed a hand gloved in latex upon his shoulder, ran her fingertips along his skin. ‘I’ve traveled a long way to find you,’ she whispered. ‘Let’s spend the night together.’

A quick movement took his breath away, brought searing pain in its wake. He seized.

‘Death?’ He mouthed, shivering.

‘No,’ she said. ‘But she’ll be here soon.’

(This story gratefully acknowledges the referencing of lines from ‘Touched by An Angel’ by Maya Angelou)

[Amber Hollinger hopes to contribute something decent (or indecent) by sharing her work, which has appeared with PoetrySuperHighway.com, S/tick, Rose Red Review, and Foliate Oak; and which is forthcoming in The Voices Project, Emerge Literary Journal, and others. She holds an MA in International Relations — not writing. She recently completed her first poetry chapbook (S)urge and is working on new short stories and non-fiction pieces.]

 

Cross-Pollination

The automaton workman belched steam from its brass mouth slit and drooped against the tree branch, unmoving.

“Great.” Sam punched the green button on his remote control. The automaton remained still, slumped against the last tree branch it had surmounted, glittering in the sun. “Just great.” The day had dawned perfect. His last bottle of orange juice had spoiled, a pile of old coats tumbled out of the closet to land on his head, now his workman gave up the ghost. Just perfect.

A few of the tree’s blackened and crumpled leaves dropped, the old bark flaked off the branches, floating to the ground. The generators’ steamy exhaust took a toll on the poor thing. He wondered how long it would last. Maybe he should tear it out.

The scent of dried pine pitch and rotted leaves filled his nose. He set the hoist in motion and lowered the clockwork gardener to the ground, opened its hand, and removed the shears.

He’d have to finish the work himself. Sam’s chest tightened as he peered through the tree’s dying leaves.

What a shame. The world’s scientists desperately scouted grain fields for any kind of new bud. Their successes grew further between. This shouldn’t be happening. He didn’t want to hear the final trumpets yet. It was far too soon.

Something flitted past his face, and he sat back, wide-eyed. Was that—

No, it couldn’t be!

The tiny thing zipped past his ear, buzzing. He turned his head, catching a glimpse. A blurred trail of yellow. The blur sped back and forth before his eyes. Finally, the busy, noisy thing alighted on his hand.

He gasped. A bee!

Sam froze, afraid it might dart away.

So, they hadn’t died out completely!

Afraid to move, he settled against the tree trunk and watched the creature pad across his hand. He slid off his left glove and coaxed the bee inside. Clamping the glove tight, he ran for the Corner Mart’s back door.

A blast of steam shot up from the store’s generators, surprising him, and he stumbled. He dropped the glove onto the generator grate and as Sam watched in horror, the glove ignited. He grabbed a stick and swiped the burning glove to the ground, and stomped the flames out. When he peeked inside the charred remains, he found the glove wasn’t the only thing the grate had fried. The bee was dead.

Steam and black soot filled the air from the energy grids in the center of town, but it didn’t seem enough. The whole city had moved to steam power, burning everything flammable. Dead trees, trash, the last of the world’s coal deposits. Rumor was, they even burned human corpses. Civilization broke down around him. People struggled to survive anyway they could now. What happened with the remains didn’t matter. If only the crops would grow…but without more bees, it seemed hopeless.

Frustrated, Sam looked to the sky. Send me another one, please?

No immediate answers to his query came.

He sighed and turned to the store’s back door.

The Corner Mart stood busy as a hive. Hundreds of men, women, of all ages, some hanging onto children, stood antsy by the doors. Others moved through the store, picking out their groceries and wares. No fist fights yet that he could see; but the crowd teetered on the edge of frustration.

All around, the shoppers picked their wares, some the last bits out of the world’s remaining factories. Sam weaved through the aisles to the counter at the far end of the store.

A brass automaton waited behind the counter, tending to each patron in turn. “Next.”

He moved behind the counter into the small pharmacy workroom and extracted the glove from his belt.

A raspy voice drew his attention from his task and he peered into the store. A scarecrow of a woman approached. Sam wondered what the automaton would think of her. He knew what he thought.

To get a better look, he plucked the half empty trash bag from the small garbage can by the desk. He pushed out the door.

“—about royal jelly? Someone told me you have a supply. Is it true? I’ve run low.”

“I’m sorry, miss. We don’t have any.”

“No?” The woman frowned but held to her spot. Sam drew nearer, listening to the two. “I thought I saw you hand a jar to that woman.” She pointed over her shoulder and Sam watched her through suspicious eyes. Thin, haggard, her straw hat askew, her voice crackled with mischief. “What of honeycomb lip balm?”

Sam reached into his pocket, tightening a hand around his gun. Leave. Go on. You’re not wanted here.

“We’re out. Sorry,” the automaton intoned. With gleaming fingers, the automaton held the woman’s money out to her and called the next customer. “Next.”

The woman persisted. “Bee butter lotion?”

“No ma’am,” the answer rang from the automaton’s brass throat. “Please move along.”

The woman took her money, a smirk curving her cracked lips. “Fine way to draw in the customers.”

She slid sunglasses on and pushed past Sam. Sam studied her through narrowed eyes. The woman looked sickly, her skin cracked and dry, her cheeks hollowed out. Bees butter and royal jelly was the least of what the woman needed.

“You know what they say, it’s easier to catch flies with honey.”

“If you’re the fly, I’d rather save my supply,” Sam grumbled. The door closed behind the cantankerous customer and Sam bent and pulled the garbage bag from a second trash can, and pushed out the back door, watching her climb onto a motorcycle parked in the employee parking lot.

She parked here to annoy him, Sam was sure.

Thick, dark exhaust spewed out the exhaust pipe as she started the motorcycle’s engine. Sam coughed.

“You need to learn how to address a queen,” she said.

Sam’s lip curled. “Not a queen like you. Get off my property!” He didn’t want to call any woman a bitch, but this one tried his patience.

“We’ll see.” The woman laughed and flipped him off as she rode by.

Sam snorted and flopped the trash into the bin and hoped the government hadn’t decided to slash garbage pickup overnight. He also hoped he never saw that woman again. One of Sam’s constant headaches that she was, it wasn’t likely.

A pained groan from behind the store’s generator interrupted his mental rant, and he stretched and peeked around the generator’s side. A naked woman sprawled behind the wide metal case. Wary, ready to strike back if she attacked—one never knew, these days. People had done weirder things—Sam cleared his throat to speak, “What are you doing back there?”

She spun to face him and Sam saw what her yellow hair hid. Behind the drawn-down brows, the wrinkled nose, and the quirk of annoyance to her lips, beyond her nakedness, her pretty features, a gold ring glinted around her neck.

She looked from him, to the tree nearby. Then she sneezed and drew a hand up to her face—and froze mid-gesture. “Is this a joke?”

“It’s an intrusion is what it is. Go on home, you.”

“I can’t.”

He frowned. Was she homeless? She wouldn’t be the first, lately. “You can’t stay here between my generator and my wall.” He tightened his grip on the gun. “Go on, now, and find some place else to sleep.”

The woman turned in the small space and kicked the generator; the sound rang through the quiet morning. She placed her hand against the steel, steadied herself to her knees. Her legs proved wobbly. Sam sighed, reached a hand out to the woman, and helped her to her feet. “Are you drunk?”

“On what, I’d like to know? No, I fell.”

From where?

The woman closed her eyes, and shook her head. She wriggled out of his grip, her gaze moved to the tree and back to him. “You can understand me?”

Frustrated he too wanted to kick something. This conversation had devolved to one he’d have with a child. “Of course I can.”

“You couldn’t earlier.”

His brow drew down in confusion. When had he seen this woman before? “I’m not sure what you mean.”

“When we spoke earlier, I was surprised to see you, I must say. I thought you were happy to—” She paused, frowned. “I don’t understand.” She ran a hand over the gold torc around her throat. “Dear gods!”

“What’s wrong?” She looked him up and down and back to the tree. Sam glanced over his shoulder, wondering what she sought. “You misunderstand. The gods have left us, of late.”

The woman licked her lips, still fondling the torc. “But you can understand me.”

“Why shouldn’t I?”

She shivered, took a step and wobbled again. Sam caught her arm, and tucked the ends of the glove into his waistband, hoping not to crush the bee’s remains. He would help this stranger get on her way, then take a look at that poor bee’s carcass. “Come on, let’s get you inside.”

He settled her into a chair in the store’s private consult room and headed to his office where he kept a crate of goods for the Salvation Army. The collection yielded an old flannel shirt and jeans. He entered the office and offered her the clothes. “The bathroom’s that way.” He pointed to the hall. “Put these on before you freeze.”

She took the outfit from his hands and peered down the hall. Hesitantly, she smiled at him. “I’m not used to this.”

“Neither am I,” he said as she trotted to the bathroom.

Sam poured her a cup of tea and hesitated, wondering if he should share his supply of honey. On second thought, he decided it charitable to share even at his loss.

She spoke close to his ear. “Things would be better if the bees returned.”

He whipped around to stare at her. He hadn’t heard her approach. “How do you know about the bees?”

She shook her head. She looked uncomfortable in the flannel. “I think I used to be one.”

It couldn’t be true! He took a deep breath. Wait, Sam, just wait. “Start from the beginning. How did you get here?”

“I was flitting around, searching for a good flower—and finding nothing in the vicinity mind you.”

Sam snorted. “Tell me something I don’t know.”

“I haven’t been feeling well,” she said. “I smacked into your fence twice because of it. You climbed up my tree and the next thing I know, it’s dark and I’m plummeting to the ground. Now—” She shrugged. “Here I am.”

He placed his hands on her cheeks. A faint scent of honey surrounded her.

What did she know? What didn’t she know? “What do you do when you’re not sleeping in other people’s parking lots?”

“I . . .” She looked lost, perplexed. “Flowers,” she said.

“Flowers.” The girl must be crazy. Poor thing. “You’re not going to find many here,” Sam said. He gazed out the window. “Rumor is, the crops won’t sustain even the east coast of England, let alone all of Europe. I haven’t had a good drink of milk in six months. The honey—sometimes it’s the only thing that keeps me going. With the bees dying, I don’t know what we’ll do.

“The bee population is dying and the scientists can’t figure it out. I found one in my tree this morning.” His eyes widened and he drooped. “Oh! That was you, wasn’t it?” Please gods, let her say otherwise.

Her eyes widened in shock. “What are you, Sam? How do you know all this?”

He didn’t answer; instead, he offered her the tea. “Speaking of honey, how much do you take?”

He opened the honey cabinet. He heard his guest gasp and looked over his shoulder. Her amber eyes widened in surprise. “What’s wrong?”

She half-rose, wobbled, and leaned against the table. “Where did you get all the honey?”

He glanced to the cabinet. Three jars remained. Shame. “We have a trademeet at the market once a month.” He nodded toward the far door to indicate the store. “Since the majority of the city’s markets shut down, we barter for everything: food, tools, medicine, expertise, honey.”

“Honey? But you’re not a—” She clapped her mouth shut and regained her seat.

Sam spooned the honey into a mug. “Not a what?”

“Never mind. May I have a taste?”

She nodded to the honey jar in his hands. “Sure.” He held out the spoon; the woman snatched the full jar from his hands. Sam watched in astonishment as she chugged at the amber liquid as if it were water.

“Hey!” He snatched the empty jar away. “Honey’s a precious commodity, don’t hog it.”

“I know.” The draught perked her up like a potion. The glaze cleared from her eyes, her shoulders squared, and she sat up straighter. “The goddess doesn’t take kindly to the way you’ve taken it for granted.”

What’d she say? “What’s your name?”

“Melissa.”

He knelt down before her. “Melissa, I don’t want you to worry. I’m going to take care of you.”

“How?”

How could he explain? “I did a little of everything when I was younger.” He pointed to the degrees gracing the wall in black frames. “I spent a year or two in pharmacy school. Another few years pursuing a nursing degree.” He shrugged. “These days, any expertise is welcome in the community. People know and come to me, when they need anything—from cough syrup to any kind of diagnosis.”

“There aren’t more of you around?” She peered at the degree. “Nursings?” she said.

Sam eyed her curiously. She’s never heard the title nurse? “The next physician that I know of lives about forty miles away,” he said. “So, I do what I can to help ease his load.” He didn’t tell her, though, of what that job sometimes consisted.

“Keeps you busy,” she guessed.

He nodded. “I don’t mind.”

He got out stethoscopes and other assorted diagnostic tools and checked the woman over, poked and prodded her until it seemed Melissa wanted to sting him.

She might be able to. It was exactly as he guessed. She was a bee.

He stepped back from his microscopes. “I can’t make sense of it. You still carry the virus, my girl. I don’t know why it’s not currently affecting your mind.”

Sam paced the room. The generators blasted and Melissa gasped in surprise, her gaze going to the windows, narrowing at the steam plume.

“It’s nothing to be afraid of,” he assured her.

“It burns.”

Sam frowned. “How so?”

A wary quirk to her lips she looked back to the generator. “It breathes too hot.”

“Breathes.” Had she gotten too close to the generators once? Thinking over what she’d said about his fence, her statement seemed to make a weird kind of sense. “It won’t harm you now.” She peered up at him, hope in her amber eyes. Sam smiled. “I promise.”

Outside his window, cars filled the store’s parking lot. More people waited in line. “You don’t mind large crowds, do you?”

Melissa shook her head. “We are several hundred strong—were, I should say. You probably think I’m mad.”

What would she think when she learned his secret?

Scrutinizing the microscope, he thought she’d probably think nothing of it.

“No.” He’d read hundreds of articles, worked dozens of rituals seeking a solution for the bee deaths, modified each time nothing happened. He searched the archives for information, but IPs dwindled day by day as the governments grew more paranoid. What searches he’d made before the access became too expensive, proved useless.

He led her deeper into the store, checking the condiment aisle for more honey. Nothing. He led her into the storeroom, hoping to find a jar.  “Not at all. I’ve been studying the bee deaths since 2012.”

She looked down at her hands. “You know what happened to me.”

Sixteen years, and yet now things began to get worse. Sam nodded. “I wasn’t sure, until you confirmed my guess.”

“Can you see them, then? The other bees?”

He peered down the nearest aisle, searching person by person. He saw no bees flitting anywhere. “Where are these other bees?” he asked.

Melissa laid a warm hand on Sam’s arm and pulled him into the next aisle. A little thrill ran through him, but surprise soon covered it when she pointed to several people on this side of the pharmacy counter. “The woman there, and that young man, and the old, fat fellow.”

“The ones with a few items in their carts?” Sam peered into the plastic baskets. “Mostly the jars of honey?” Melissa nodded, an enthusiastic bob of her head. “What about them?”

“They’re all bees.” She shook her head and watching the crowd, chose another man. “The aura’s unmistakable. He’s a bee.” She kept moving and followed a second man. “Him too.”

“You’ve got to be joking.”

“No.” She took his arm and pointed again. “See the ones with multiple jars of honey? That’s one clue.”

“Lots of people like honey.”

“These crave it. Like I do.” Melissa nodded. “There’s your difference. I don’t understand.” Sadness filled Melissa’s eyes as she looked up at him. “Do you think the illness is affecting their minds? The bee illness. They have it. They must.”

“You can see them?” Sam scanned the shoppers. Perhaps he did see something there, a vague outline of wings. The shimmering contours seemed to clear. He slapped his forehead. “Dear gods! All the time, right here.”

“I don’t know how you could’ve known. You’re not one of us.” She ran a hand across her torc. “I never noticed before, myself. But my mind’s not as fuzzy as it was this morning. I think I’m getting better.”

“Are you sure about these people?”

She nodded to a woman in a print dress. “The woman in the flowered dress, especially. She’s from my hive.”

Sam studied the woman. Hive? What on earth? “What do you mean?

“She’s my sister.”

“Your sister?” She nodded. She was absolutely convinced she knew this woman. Sam approached the lady and coaxed her to let him run a few preliminary tests. Nothing out of the ordinary, he assured her as he pricked her finger. He slid the blood sample into his microscope. What he found astounded him. To keep her from worrying, he gave the woman a prescription. Sugar pills, cough drops. Nothing she couldn’t use later when needed.

“What did you give her?” Melissa asked.

“Nothing important. You on the other hand, have shown me something quite interesting. You’re right. That woman carries the bee virus.”

* * * *

The scarecrow woman lowered her hand from her eyes as she studied the crop. The brown grass, the dead cornstalks, the abandoned scarecrow, as far as she could see, death and decay reigned supreme. She turned her steps down a row of pumpkins and kicked at the stems. They crumbled on impact. Only a matter of time before the rest of the crops followed in its wake. Those rain clouds overhead might slow the inevitable, but she wasn’t worried.

She climbed onto her motorcycle and drove down the M-1 motorway toward another open field. There, abandoned bee colonies stacked one on top of the other stood in decaying rows. She climbed over the fence and approached the colonies. She jiggled a box or two to be sure. No buzzing, no movement sounded therein.

A caw sounded overhead. She looked up, and spied a crow. Just for fun, she poisoned its prey. The crow caught the mouse mid-run and swallowed it down. A few minutes later, the crow dropped from the sky, dead. The woman smiled.

Now to check on Sam’s tree.

She pulled into the Corner Mart parking lot. Aside from one or two stragglers, the lot was emptying out for the evening. She hopped off the cycle and peeked in the store windows, but couldn’t see Sam anywhere. Where’d the pest go off to now?

It didn’t matter. Her cousin was incidental. The bees were all that matter, and all looked well there, by her estimation.

It’s only a matter of time. And Time always wins.

Let Sam try all he could to save them. His efforts would come to naught. A Pest would have its field day.

* * * *

We were several hundred strong, she’d said.

Sam ran his finger around the edge of the honey jar, stealing a drop. Melissa sucked at yet another jar of the sweet elixir. Maybe she really was a bee—and that woman from the store. They carried the DNA; it couldn’t be coincidence. How many others were out there? How could he help them?

He had to do something, but what? He couldn’t sit around and wait for the end.

Melissa finished off another jar of honey and followed him outside. He had to do something with her, but what? “Do you have a home?”

“All gone,” she said. “I’m the only one left.”

Surely she couldn’t sleep in the parking lot. The sun dropped past its zenith, and Sam shaded his eyes from the glare. “You can stay the night with me, if you need to. We’ll find you some place more permanent tomorrow.” He hoped. “We’ve a small apartment upstairs. You can stay there tonight.” Where he’d sleep if she took his bed, he wasn’t sure though. The office chair might have to do. It wouldn’t be the first night he’d spent here.

“I have to check something,” he said, ducking out the back door. He turned to the left, toward the small patch of nature that surrounded the Tree.

Melissa timidly followed. Her eyes went wide. “Oh my!”

Sam nodded, eyeing the brittle leaves and flaking bark. “Yeah. You should’ve seen it a year ago.”

Once the small raised garden he’d built here flourished. Now he fought a losing battle to keep it alive. The grass had gone brown in patches, the vegetables gasped in the heat seeking nutrients unfound in the dying soil. His wasn’t the only drying tree in town, but arguably, the most important.

Sam sighed and went to the circle of bee boxes he kept there. Nothing had come to visit. He cursed the timetable he fought against, picked up pens and candles, and set to work.

As the sun inched below the horizon, he tinkered and chanted in the center of the stack of empty bee boxes. Melissa sat on the sandy ground, back against a dead tree stump, watching him draw his circles and sigils on the boxes. He couldn’t see how this evening could be any different than the others. How many spells had he attempted? How many failures? How could this be any different?

He picked up a matchbox, rattled the matches as he pulled one free, and struck it against the side and tossed it into the small pot on the box beside him.

Melissa’s question drew his attention away from his work. “What’s all this about?”

“See the tree?” He pointed into its branches high above. “It’s not doing so hot. This is going to help.” I think.

“And if it doesn’t?”

He didn’t want to consider that.

“What will you do then?”

“We’ll think of something. The best minds are trying for the solution.”

“Those things, then?”

“What things?”

“The man. The one who works inside.” She tapped the ring around her neck. “He looks like this: metal-like.”

Sam looked to the shed in the corner. She’d be surprised to learn the store wasn’t the only home for the workers, he supposed. For what good the workers seemed to do.

“Those are special friends. Automatons, we call them.”

“And they do what?”

“Help around the shop, at home. Wherever we need an extra hand.”

“You trade them too?”

“From time to time,” Sam said, “or fix them for each other, whatever.”

“Will you trade me when we’re finished?”

Sam scoffed. “Of course not.”

“Not even for honey?”

“No.” He ran a hand down the tree’s dry trunk. “Come, we’ve work to do.” He stepped back and raised his arms to the sky. Melissa rose and came to his side, poking through the boxes. He cleared his throat. “Ready?”

Melissa’s brow quirked. “For what?”

Sam nudged her fondly. “Do what I do. Raise your hands like this.” He lowered, then raised his arms and she did likewise. “Good girl.” He circled the tree once, and the woman followed. “I call on ye spirits to witness our work. And blessed Earth Mother—”

Melissa paused and knelt at the foot of the tree and plucked the last lone flower—or weed, really—away from its trunk. After a moment, she looked up at him and smiled. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to distract you.” She tucked the flower behind her ear, took her spot beside him and raised her arms. “Like this?”

“Yes,” he said.  She was rather cute, following him, and mimicking his moves, he thought. He could get used to having someone like her around.

Sam blinked the thought away, going back to his work, rounding the tree to the north. He raised his arms again and she followed likewise.

“And blessed Earth Mother protect this Tree as you have for millennia. Spare it from all ill effects. Bring its guardians back to it, as you always have.”

He faced Melissa.

She studied the tree, the path he’d taken, an innocent, yet quizzical look on her face. “Is that all it takes?”

“No.” He held out a hand. “Now, I have to ask something you may think silly.”

“I wouldn’t.”

He cocked a brow. “Are you sure? You don’t know what I’m about to request.”

Melissa nodded. “It’s not like you’re going to make me cluck like a chicken, Sam. Just ask.”

He bit back a laugh. “All right.” He crossed back to the Tree’s base. Would the bee be there? If this gal was the bee, he already had his answer.

He stopped mid-step and stared at the store. Did he hear footsteps? Was it an animal foraging for food? Or something else?

“I want you to dance with me,” he said. A high-pitched guffaw escaped her lips, and Sam smiled. “I told you it would sound silly.”

She was already smiling. “Is that the best you can do?”

“You’re the expert at this.”

She tucked her long hair behind her ear. “What are you an expert at, Sam?” she asked.

You don’t want to know. “We’ll talk about it later.” He spun her around once and pulled her close. “Maybe you’d better show me how to do this?”

She swallowed the next guffaw. “I’d be charmed.” Her dainty foot tapped against the ground and she began skipping around the tree. She laughed and bounced away.

Steam wafted on the cool breeze, curled around them and seemed to wrap them in a lazy blanket. The worry and the fear he’d carried the last few years floated away. This was why the gods had created him. He was meant for this, he realized, this ultimate dance of life. The ultimate anticipation of the end of the dance.

For a moment, the draw to stamp the life out of everything welled up in him along with a stab of fear. Something more than the power of the tree and the life around them flowed from her. He wondered, did she even know the power she held? Sam realized he couldn’t think of another time, another nymph he’d ever lament losing. This one, however—Melissa—she was different. To steal the life from her felt the same as if he contemplated stealing the life of the Universal Tree itself.

He broke his hold, stepping back. He was used to what he brought to others, Death, plain and simple; he couldn’t change what the gods created him for. But for some reason, for this one—nymph, woman, bee, whatever she may be—he couldn’t allow that power to touch her. No, he thought, reining his gift in, pushing it in the opposite direction. Life, damn it. Life!

Melissa tripped into him, slid her arms around him and kissed him.

The world seemed to wobble under Sam’s feet. The gods had never meant him to fall in love with humanity. With one woman.

“Well, well. The mighty have fallen.”

Sam broke the kiss, whipped his gaze to the gate. The scarecrow woman stood there, a wicked smile quirking her lips. Sam noticed the vines clinging to the gate seemed to droop. Oh, hell no. Not Nicnevin. Not now.

Nicnevin glanced at her cracked nails. “I guess you’re not fit for the job, after all.”

Sam stepped in front of Melissa. “What do you want?”

“I wanted to see it for myself. Astounding. I never would’ve believed it, but apparently, it’s true. Isn’t that sweet? You even gave her your ring.”

Sam glanced down at his hand to find she was right. The gold ring he usually wore was gone. He peered at Melissa’s necklet. As if he needed more evidence of her transformation. Oh…The gods had some hand in the day’s going’s-on, for sure.

Nicnevin tsked. “I suppose that explains why you favor him. You’re not getting enough oxygen to your brain.”

Sam scrutinized the ring. Yes, it shared the same markings with the one he’d lost. To see it now, on her eased his mind about its whereabouts; more he suspected it had a very different effect than Nicnevin supposed. Was it, after all, protecting Melissa? Was that how she’d survived the virus?

“Or is it some kind of promise token?” Nicnevin asked. “Is that it?”

He was more interested in getting the ring off. If he cut it off, would the poison overtake Melissa’s mind again?

“My, my,” Nicnevin said, bringing his attention back. “Even Death can fall. Who would’ve thought it?”

Melissa’s voice caressed his ear. “Death?”

Sam closed his eyes. For a moment, his stomach grew queasy thinking of what they’d made of him.

“Didn’t he tell you, sweetheart?” Nicnevin taunted. “Now me. You’ll never see me debasing myself for some skirt, cousin.”

“What do you want?” Sam hissed.

“You know.” Nicnevin scanned Melissa up and down, and opened the gate, sauntering down the path as if she owned this garden. “It’s time to get to work.”

“I think not.” I hope not.

She scuffed a boot as she halted within arm’s reach.

Melissa drooped beside Sam and he tightened his grip on her hand. Not your time yet. Breathe. “I’ve told you before, we can find better things to do with our time.”

“When this is what they made us for?” Nicnevin poked Sam in the chest. “You forget, cousin. We’ve got a job to do.”

Melissa seemed to perk up. Sam stifled the urge to show his relief. His cousin didn’t hold as many cards as she thought. “You seem to forget it’s not your place,” he said.

“To what? Do my job?” Nicnevin stepped back and crossed to the tree, looking it up and down as she’d studied Melissa. The tree trunk blackened, the roots shifted beneath their feet. “Come, Samiel.” She turned her scrutiny back on Melissa. “You’re the one who’s forgotten your job.”

Sam narrowed his eyes, and in that split second, Nicnevin raised her hand to strike. The blow came down, but Sam leaped back. “What do you think you’re doing?”

“It’s about time someone else replaced you.” Nicnevin’s lips twisted in rage. “If you can’t do the job assigned to you, maybe I can.”

“Sam?”

He chanced a glance at Melissa. “Not now, my girl.”

“But Sam—” She pointed to the intruder. “—she’s the one!”

“She’s the one what?”

“She’s the one who’s been luring my siblings away from our tree, the last few months.”

Sam looked to Nicnevin as if seeing her for the first time in forever. “Are you sure?”

Melissa nodded. “I think she’s the one who made them ill.”

“Makes sense, now you think about it, doesn’t it?” Nicnevin’s lip curled a little, an amused smile, the poison she spread evident in the evil glint in her eye. “Apparently the animal kingdom isn’t dumb after all. On the other hand, she is with you.”

“As you said, the animal kingdom isn’t stupid,” Sam said.

Nicnevin took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

Fog curled around them.

Melissa coughed hard, great gasping blasts that shook her delicate body.

“Won’t matter soon,” Nicnevin said.

Sam gave the fog a steely stare. “Be gone.”

The fog undulated and thickened. Nicnevin smiled. “You’ll have to do better than that.” She reached into her pocket and brought forth two syringes.

Sam scoffed. “By the gods, you are so predictable.”

“Well,” she said, “we all have our tools. You’ve just forgotten how to use yours.”

She flicked the needles outward, the needles extended to the length of short swords. She whirled them in the air, inches from Sam’s head. Close up, he wondered, were they really as deadly dirty as they looked? He would hardly expect her to do something that would keep disease from spreading.

Wary of her weapons, Sam ducked and steadying his stance, realized he stepped on a small foot. Melissa rocked forward and he caught her in his arms. “You okay?”

She blinked her amber eyes, narrowed them, trying to see through the fog. He wondered if it filled her head as well as the space around them. “I think not so much.”

“You’d better get out of here while you can.”

“No. You should leave.” She pushed away from him and glared at Nicnevin. “You can’t defeat her.”

“I’ve had lots of practice,” Sam said. “I’ll manage.”

“But she’s—”

“I know what she is.” He pushed a lock of hair out of her eyes. “I won’t run from my home. Nor will I have you hurt. Go, I’ll be fine.”

Melissa turned; a whirr filled the air. Hot steam belched from the generators. He lost sight of the women. But he could hear Nicnevin speaking to Melissa and followed that beacon. “I don’t think so, love. You wouldn’t want to miss the dance, would you?”

Sam’s vision settled on them and his heart slowed. Nicnevin had her grubby paws on Melissa but Melissa still breathed. Sam grasped her wrist in an iron-tight grip. Melissa squealed as he jerked her behind him. “Leave her alone, Nicnevin!”

“Why?” his cousin asked. “Why should you have all the fun?”

“I know what you have in mind. And you’ve no power here, your Majesty.”

The Queen of Elphame circled him and jerked the girl back to her—hard. Melissa cried out again. Sam stumbled as his hold broke. Damn. 

“Of course you do,” Nicnevin said. “Because you’re thinking the same thing.”

Sam narrowed his eyes. “This is my home. You won’t desecrate it with your filth!” He placed his hands on his cousin’s chest and shoved her away. She flew across the edge of their circular workspace and Sam raised his hand, calling the gods to lock it down. The outline shimmered gold and a shot of steam spiraled from its four quarters. His automatons whirled at the circle’s border, smashing into an unseen barrier as they tried to assist their master. Their presence only added to the clamor.

Nicnevin, caught in the blast, snarled.

“Did I do better this time?” Sam teased.

“This isn’t over!”

Though Nicnevin’s skin showed the burns of hitting steam and circle’s perimeter, she charged, aiming for Melissa. Melissa raised her right hand, pointing, and Nicnevin hit her straight on.

Sam caught them as they stumbled into him. Nicnevin’s eyes went wide and grew glassy as a lake, Sam looked down to see Melissa’s fingernail, like a stinger, embedded in her chest.

“What the hell?” Nicnevin blinked. She shuddered and tried to dislodge Melissa’s nail. She couldn’t. Her lips started to swell, her eyes. “What are you?” Nicnevin asked, her breathing labored. She looked at Sam. “What is she?”

Good question, Sam thought.

Melissa pushed, digging her nail in a little deeper. “You’ll never understand. Go back where you belong, demon!”

“Silly girl, we’re not demons.”

“I don’t care what you call yourself. Harming my loved ones makes you a demon.” She tugged her nail free, causing Nicnevin to yowl in pain. “Be gone!” Melissa said.

Nicnevin stumbled and plopped to the ground, breaking the circle.

Sam knelt and put a hand on Nicnevin’s chest finding her skin heated, slick and sweaty. His fingers soaked in blood. “Go, and tell them I say the time is not yet.”

Nicnevin opened and shut her mouth. “Hell will have its day.”

“I know, but I’ve won. Remind them, I have the final say.” Sam ran his bloody finger in a small spiraling symbol. “Leave it for a while.”

“You can’t keep me away,” Nicnevin said, her tongue thick, marring her pronunciation.

“Yes, I can,” Sam said. Another squiggle and Nicnevin’s eyes fluttered shut and her breathing slowed. Sam guided her gently to the grass and whispered, “No one will find your family, will they? No one will claim you. You’ll be just another nameless Jane in the hospital.”

“You wouldn’t!”

He smiled. “Do you think I’d let you die, cousin? Not yet.”

“I’ll be a burden. You’ll never afford it.”

“I will.” Ward of the state, hooked up to machines for the rest of her life—for the life of the world. Sam wouldn’t give her the satisfaction of allowing her to die. “I promise, you won’t die. You will be attended to.”

He whistled; the steam sank to the ground and the automatons sped to his side. “She needs medical assistance.”

They beeped and bleeped and soon, one of the automatons spoke, “An ambulance is on its way, Sam.”

Melissa cried out and rushed him. Sam caught her in his arms. She kissed him and he found he hadn’t imagined it: she indeed tasted of honey.

“You’re okay,” he said. “It’s over. But I think I need you to do that again.”

Instead of obliging him, she cocked her head, listening. “Wait,” she said. “They’re coming.”

He peered into the Eastern sky. He couldn’t hear or see anything beyond the siren’s scream, and the blat of the generators, like off-key steam-filled trumpets. Gotta fix those.

Melissa looked up at him. “They’re here.”

“Who are?” Sam asked.

A low buzz filled the quiet. A dark wave rushed them. Bees. Thousands of them. Sam wrapped his arms around Melissa’s head and hid his face in her hair.

The buzzing noise softened and Sam opened one eye. They hovered in the air before them.

Melissa wiggled in his arms and pulled away. The bees converged on her.

Sam cried out and reached for her but she disappeared under a cloak of squirming, buzzing black. He tried to bat the bees away, he commanded them to leave, but still, they stayed. Sam stopped his ears in a vain attempt to shut his mind against the pain he knew she must feel.

The bees rose then and Sam rubbed his eyes to see Melissa moving upward with them—not her soul, but her body rose and hovered in the air as the bees lifted her as if they formed a living pedestal. They moved up, over the store, and Sam ran after them, skidding to a stop in the deserted street.

Bees and woman spun slowly once then Melissa opened her eyes. They pushed her form upright. She threw one hand to the east, one to the west. Two columns of bees broke away going in opposite directions, shooting off like missiles to the empty fields. No matter how far they flew the droning buzz remained in his ears.

Sam clapped a hand over his mouth, holding back surprise and joy to see the bees descending on the fields. Bees! Even when he closed his eyes the amazing sight remained. Little bees flitted here and there through his thoughts, kissing every flower, tree and passerby with their honeyed blessings.

“The trouble you foresaw.” Melissa snapped her fingers. “Forget it. We’ve no need to follow your cousin’s plan.”

Sam opened his eyes to see her floating, watching him. Her blonde hair now streaked with black, like a bee’s coat, her amber eyes gleamed in a soft sheen, like their eyes. Sweet, soft light surrounded her. A goddess on the wing. The Melissae embodied.

Sam wanted to kick himself. He’d recognized something special, something kindred in her. But why had he not seen the truth?

He sniffled. “No. No we don’t need to follow through.”

Melissa studied him for another moment, and spoke again, “Go now,” she said, “and take care of your people.”

Sam laid a hand to his heart. “I shall. And never forget.”

She moved closer, hovering over him. She bent and kissed his forehead and met his eyes a moment later. She smiled. “Nor I you.” She dropped his ring into his hand, touched his cheek once more and faded into the sun. Sam bowed to it.

The ambulance screeched to a halt and he pointed the paramedics to the back yard. Before following them, he slipped the ring onto his finger and sauntered to the edge of the field. There, he watched bees happily going about their work and knew soon life would return to the dying Earth.

[Juli D. Revezzo has long been in love with writing, a love built by devouring everything from the Arthurian legends, to the works of Michael Moorcock, and the classics and has a soft spot for classic the “Goths” of the 19th century. Her short fiction has been published in Dark Things II: Cat Crimes, The Scribing Ibis, Eternal Haunted Summer, Twisted Dreams Magazine, Luna Station Quarterly, and Crossed Genres‘ “Posted stories for Haiti relief” project, while her non-fiction has been included in The Scarlet Letter. She has also, on occasion, edited the popular e-zine Nolan’s Pop Culture Review… But her heart lies in the storytelling. She is a member of the Indie Author Network. Her debut novel, The Artist’s Inheritance was recently released. Visit her here.]

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